Let Your Feelings Show...

It was day 40 into Life without Nicki and Safaree had barely gotten any sleep. The triplets kept him running around constantly. If they weren't in school he was running Zaria to her Dance classes or Daria to her basketball practices. And it didn't help that Nicki called every other hour to check up on them. Safaree just wanted a couple of hours of sleep to re-energize and he'd be fine, and it seemed like he would get his wish.

The doorbell rang and he slowly but surely made his way to the door after making sure the kids were settled in the living room. When he opened the door two grocery bags appeared in his arms and Mama carol made her way into the house. Safaree closed the door and followed behind her and went into the kitchen sitting the bags down. He watched in a daze as she moved swiftly around the house getting it back in the order of which Nicki left it.

"So she told you to come and check up on me?" he asked annoyed.

"What? No, I just know how my grand babies can get and no one can handle these three on their own for two weeks straight." Mama Carol said picking up the scattered toys.

"Wait Nana not that one." Ethan said grabbing his train.

"Ethan you can't play with all six of these at once so put three of them in your toy chest." she instructed. Ethan stared at the trains intently then scratched the side of his face like his father did when making an important decision then picked three and put them away. "When you want to play with another just switch it out okay Ethan?" she rubbed his head.

"Yes Nana."

"Well no offense Mama Carol-"

"I feel like I'll be offended so It's best you just not say it." She looked up into an exhausted Safarees face. she knew he need rest just like Nicki knew before she left he would try to be super dad and do this all by himself. "Safaree I've looked at you like you were my own since you were 14 years old and I do for you as I do for my blood. So take your behind upstairs and don't come down until I tell you too. You do trust me to take care of my grandchildren don't you?"

"Yes ma'am I do I just-"

"Well then that's all that matters so go sleep before I tell Onika and she yells at you and we both know you don't want to hear one of her rants." Mama Carol smiled.

Safaree smirked thinking about how Nicki's nose wrinkled when she got heated. And how her leg bounced uncontrollably.

"Thank you Mama Carol. Sorry for-"

"No need to apologize, I know how you get with lack of sleep." She said straightening the pillows on the couch. Safaree kissed the top of her head and made his way up to his bed.

On Location

Nicki looked around at all the beautiful waterfalls surrounding her. The birds and wildlife around her made her sit in a tranquil state for the first time since she has been in China. She looked at the cast and crew move about while Joyce put the finishing touches on her make-up. Nicki spotted Mai coming toward her.

Mai was the one to let her know what exactly was going to happen in the shot and let her know her blocking. She was such a ball of energy which Nicki loved.

"Hows the Harajuku Barbie on this fine Monday morning?" Nicki laughed.

"Why you keep callin me that?" Nicki rolled her eyes.

"Uh uh don't pull your Queens accent out on me hunny." Nicki busted out in her obnoxious laugh.

"Mai why you so Ratchet? The Barbs would love you." Nicki picked up her phone.

@NICKIMINAJ BARBSSSSSSS..... Mai puts the RATCH in Ratchet. #TisAWL

"We're ready for Nicki." a mans voice came from the walkie on Mai's hip.

"You finished Joyce?" Nicki asked.

"Yes but I don't see why I just beat your face to perfection only for you to ruin it diving into the water?" Joyce said with attitude. Nicki stood. "Hold on let me take a picture so I can twitpic once the movie comes out so they can see what a masterpiece looks like."

"You are so extra Joyce-ann." Nicki smiled and gave face for the camera. Nicki untied her robe and revealed a very revealing bikini. "Take a picture with my phone." Again Nicki struck a sexy pose with her hands in her hair and showed off her very toned thighs.

"Who are you trying to look sexy for." Nicki just smiled and sent the picture to Safaree.

Dat Coon
Wish you were here to peel this off me. ;)

Safaree
I'll let him know once he wakes up. You could find a more appropriate swimsuit baby girl?

Dat Coon
OMG MOM PUT HIS PHONE DOWN.

Nicki was instantly embarrassed, she didn't even wait for a response she just put the phone down and fell in step behind Mai.

When Nicki and Mai reached the top of the mountain she was greeted by her stunt coordinator and the director.

"Hello beautiful." Steven said kissing her hand.

"Such a charmer Steven." Nicki said in her southern bell voice.

"So can you repeat back to me what Mai told you so I know you are completely aware of what's expected in this scene?" Steven asked.

"Sure. I run from those trees over there trying to get away from Randolph and when I see there is no way down but the waterfall I stop causing Randolph to tackle me to the ground. We wrestle around and he throws me over his head onto my back. I hope up Kick, he blocks pushing me into the water, I stand up run to the edge of the waterfall, stop and turn around. "There is nowhere to go but down Liliana, come back with me and I'll forget about the betrayal" then I smirk and ever so elegantly backwards dive off the top of the waterfall and into the water below." Nicki said.

"Perfect mon amour. And you're sure you want to do thee actual dive. Gina is up here if you want her to do it." Steven reassured.

Nicki looked over at her stunt double Gina and smiled.

"No I don't want her stealing my thunder, I wanna say I did all my stunts." Nicki said confidently.

"Alright well let's do this." Steven took her hand and led Nicki into the trees where she was supposed to bust out from.

New York

"Just go do what you need to Safaree, me and the kids are fine here."

Safaree and Mama Carol had been going back and forth all evening. Safaree didn't want to push the kids off on her just be cause she was there but Mama Carol insisted on him going into his study and getting his business plan for his company he wanted to start as close to finished as possible.

"Mama Carol this isn't your responsibility. The kids can come into the office with me and you can go home." He offered.

"You will never be able to get any work done with Zaria in there and her 101 questions. Zaria looked up from the picture she was drawing wondering how she got pulled into the conversation. "I'm starting to believe you don't want my company?" She crossed her arms.

Safaree sighed and shook his head. He now seen where Nicki got all her head games from.

"You don't play fair. Two hours tops then I'm coming to make dinner." Safaree turned and walked off.

"If you say so." mama Carol went back into the theater and got comfy next to the kids on their pallet on the floor. "So what movie is this you three?"

"The Fox and the Hound." they all said not breaking concentration from the screen.

"Your mommy used to love this movie."

"Really?" Ethan said looking at Mama Carol.

"Yes. She said it was one of the greatest test of friendship." Ethan crawled in her lap no longer having interest in the movie.

"I miss her." Ethan said laying his head on her chest.

"I know you do baby but she'll be back in no time. She's gotta work so she can keep buying all those trains you like. She would never leave you for forever sweetie." Mama Carol said kissing his forehead.

"Promise?"

"Has Nana ever lied to her baby?"

"No Nana, never." He said kissing her cheek. "Nana you have holes like mommy." he poked her dimple.

"I gave your mother those holes people love so much."

"Me and Daria have holes on our butts." Zaria chimed in causing Ethan to laugh.

"You have extra holes in your butts." He teased.

"Shut up Ethan." Daria yelled. Ethan rolled around on the floor laughing. Daria got up and began pushing his head into the floor.

"I said shut up." She yelled again.

"Get off me Daria." He pushed back now serious.

"Hey you two stop." Mama Carol said seeing this was getting serious. She picked Daria up off of Ethan. "Daria calm down, what's gotten into you? You don't hit your family."

"But he-"

"No buts Toot. And Ethan you know you don't hit girls."

"But it's Daria she's not a girl she's a poo poo head." He broke out in laughter again. Daria went after him again.

"You to remind me of your mother and Uncle Jay." She rolled her eyes. "Well come on Zaria I guess you can lick the spoon after I finish mixing the cake batter." Mama Carol said catching Daria and Ethan's attention.

"Yay." Zaria hopped up and ran up the stairs to the kitchen.

"No, we're sorry Nana." Ethan said. He loved cooking with the grown ups.

"Yeah we're sorry." Daria gut checked Ethan with her elbow one last time.

"Come on so we can cook your daddy dinner." she took both of them by the hand.

Four Hours Later

A light knock raked across Safaree's office door pulling him from number crunching. Mama Carol popped her head into the office. Safaree looked at the time it read 10pm. He rubbed his eyes and caught the scent of lasagna.

"In here working hard or hardly working?" She placed the plate in front of him.

"Working hard." he picked up the fork and dug in. Mama Carol popped his hand causing him to drop the fork from his mouth.

"Say your grace first." She waited for him to say it then spoke. "You know my lasagna taste better fresh out the oven not microwaved."

"I know I'm sorry. I lost track of time. Are the kids sleep yet?"

"Hours ago. And everything is cleaned up."

"Thank you for today Mama C, I needed this break."

"I know you did. So how are you doing?" She asked sitting across from him. They locked eyes and Safaree knew a generic "I'm good" was not going to cut it.

"I miss her but I'm making it." he leaned back in the chair."

"You're talking as if she died Safaree. She'll be back here in no time."

"I know but we haven't been without each other this long ever. Not even when we broke up five years ago. When you're are used to seeing a person almost everyday, when it changes it's hard to get used to. And on top of that mama Carol we just got back together not to long ago, what if during this time she decides she can live without me? I don't know if I can handle that." They sat in silence. Safaree couldn't believe that he had just laid his feelings out like that in front of the mother of the woman he loved. It was something about the Maraj women that just made people feel safe and open he thought.

"The way your feeling I'm sure she's feeling too. The next time it's just you to on that video thing y'all talk to each other on tell her how you really feel."

"Yes ma'am."

"Well I'm headed to my room. Breakfast at 7am, don't be late." she closed the door behind her.

Safaree knew Nicki wouldn't be calling tonight so he headed upstairs. Walking past the table in the hallway he picked up his phone. He scrolled through his missed calls and and seen he had text messages from Nicki. He'd check them after his shower.

Thursday in Shanghai

Nicki was having lunch with the cast and crew. She really wasn't having as much as everyone else. She was feeling guilty for not calling the kids and Safaree before they went to sleep. She knew they were fine because her mom was there but she wanted to hear their voices for herself. She really wanted to speak with Daria. Every time they Skyped or Nicki tried to talk to her on the phone Daria was short with her.

"So Nicki how are you liking it over here so far?" Trever the sound guy asked. Everyone addressed the China natives by an American name for the American actors. Nicki tried to learn their names but it was just no way she was going to get the pronunciation of Ming-húa.

"I'm enjoying it a lot. The people here are so nice and polite." Nicki said forcing a fake smile.

"Have you seen any of your Barbs while you've been out and about?" Mai asked.

"Yes. They make this feel like back in the states. They always make me happy." Nicki gave a genuine smile this time.

"You miss your family." Mai said to her as everyone else went back to their side conversations.

"Is it that obvious?" Nicki asked looking defeated.

"It's expected. You have three small children and I'm guessing this is the first time you have been away from them this long since they've been born."

"Yes, it is. I feel like a horrible mother for leaving them." Mai shook her head.

"You are doing this for them, so they can have the very best out of life. Don't think that way Nicki." Mai said with a concerned look on her face. Nicki smiled at her genuine concern.

"You remind me of Safaree."

"Oh that's your fella back home?" Mai asked wiggling her eyebrows.

"Yes." Nicki blushed a bit. "I miss him too and I didn't get to call him tonight and this is the third day i haven't. I promised him and my kids I would call every night."

"Well go home now and call him."

"It's two in the morning over there."

"So, he your man. He's supposed to wake up for you." Nicki laughed at the sudden grammatical error in Mai's speech.

"But I don't want to be rude." Mai threw her hands up.

"They're men. if you're waiting on them to leave you'll be waiting all night. They are going to sit here and drink all night. No one will mind if you leave early just remember your driver will be at your house at 9pm to pick you up for the highway scene."

"Alright. Will you be there tonight?" Nicki asked looking through her wallet for cash.

"Don't worry Steven will pay and yes I'll be there. Tell your boyfriend I said hi." Mai nudge Nicki away.

"Goodbye everyone." They all said their goodbyes and she was off.

Two Hours Later

Dat Coon
I need to see your face

Safaree
It's 4am babe...

Dat Coon
Pweaseeeee :(

Safaree
Okay give me a minute

Nicki smiled and looked in the mirror at herself. She didn't want it to look like she had just showered and put on make-up and a cute top to make her boobs look good. Which she actually did just do. Nicki heard the familiar ring of Skype and hurried over to her bed. She answered and it took a second for him to pop up on her screen.

"Hi babe." She grinned big into the camera.

"Hey baby." Safaree replied as up beat as he possibly could at 4am. Nicki noticed his eyes were still closed.

"Babe wake up, I miss you." she tapped the screen like he could actually feel it.

"I am up Nic." Safaree rubbed his eyes and peeked at the screen, raising his eyebrow at the sight of Nicki. "You look pretty." Nicki smiled even bigger.

"I do? I just got in from the set, I probably look a hot mess." she said downplaying her image.

"If that's what you look like from a long morning of working I'm one lucky coon."

"I'm glad you realized it." she giggled.

"I miss that." he said.

"Miss what?" she laid down propping her head in her hand.

"Your cockiness and the giggle that always follows after. I miss you baby." he confessed.

"I miss you more than you'll ever know Safaree. It's lonely being out here all by myself. Yeah I have Terrence and Joyce but they're not enough. I need you and my kids." Nicki stopped herself so she wouldn't cry.

"You'll see us soon Nicki. Please don't cry." he was torn. He was supposed to be able to comfort her and he couldn't.

"I'm not."

"Is that a new bra?" he asked trying to get her mind on something else. Nicki looked down.

"yes, i bought it the other day. You like?" She pushed her boobs together.

"Let me find out you got somebody out there to be buying new bras for." Nicki laughed.

"No, I got them for you."

"Better have."

"I did. You want a better view?" She asked in a sexy tone.

"Yeah." he replied. Nicki jumped to her knees and slowly pulled the thin t-shirt over head. Safaree sucked in air and adjusted his pajama pants.

"I'm sorry." Nicki said.

"for what Nic?"

"For leaving and not making love to you. That's the one thing you asked of me and I didn't fulfill it."

"Don't worry about that. I love that bra though." he smiled and licked his lips.

"I thought you would." Safaree yawned.

"Babe me and the kids have a full day tomorrow I gotta get some sleep."

"Okay but leave the camera on, I want to watch you sleep." Nicki said getting comfy in her bed.

"Okay, I love you."

"I love you too. Muah. Give me a kiss back." she said.

"Muah." Safaree got comfortable in the bed and was sleep within minutes.

Nicki sat there and watched him for awhile then felt like a creeper so she ended the call.

@NICKIMINAJ I miss my babies.... Barbs I Love you.

Nicki dropped her phone in her purse and picked up her Kindle. When she opened the case a picture fell out. She picked it up and seen it was her and Ethan. She thought back to when he was three.

"I'm going to have to reevaluate somethings." Nicki said to herself.

"Mommy what does re...ree..what did you say" Ethan asked  tilting his head, and scrunching up his face.

"Reevaluate Ethan." Nicki said going over the final plans for the families trip to her homeland of Trinidad.

"What does reebaluate mean?" he looked at her intently.

"To think about something again." she stared of into space.

"Oh." he went back to playing on the floor in Nickis study. Nicki looked at her son and marveled at how inquisitive he was becoming.

LATER

Nicki was in the studio downstairs in her home writing a verse but she couldn't quite get it to sound right. Ethan was on the floor playing with a train.

"Ugh." she crumpled up the paper and pushed the button on the remote to start the track again.

"What's wrong mommy?" He was standing barefoot on the leather couch leaning on the back of it with his head propped up in his hand eating an apple.

 "I can't get this verse right." she looked toward the booth going over what she had in her head to the beat.

"Well maybe you should reebaluate it." he took a bite of his apple and innocently stared at her. She looked over at him and smiled.

"Yeah maybe I should." she pulled him to her tickling him. "Gimme some of your apple."

"Say pwease mommy."

"Oh excuse me, can I pwease have some of your apple?"

"You can do a lot mommy." he giggled. She dropped her jaw at him using her own sayings against her.

"Keep your stank apple." she pushed him off her onto the couch. "I'll just go make a apple pie and eat it all by myself." she got up walking out of the studio. She heard a soft thump then the sound of small feet running.

"I want some apple pie. You gonna make it like grandma?" She knew that was his favorite dessert. Ethan pulled at her pants leg, she looked down at him handing her the apple core.

"So when I ask for a piece of the apple you get all smart but when you're done you offer up the waste? Give it here." she took it from him.

"Love you mommy." he looked at her with his pretty browns.

"Don't try and sweet talk me." he laughed and took off up the stairs to the main floor. "Love that kid."


The doorbell rang pulling Nicki from her day dream. Nicki looked at the time. It was 8:45. She grabbed her purse and went to the door. She was escorted to the car by her small Asian driver Paco. They puled off.

@NICKIMINAJ Can Y'all say Guns and Bad Bitches?

*Well what did you think? And for the record there has NEVER been a female in my story named Michelle, get it together people. So where do you think I'm going with this story? Hmmmmmm...lol Bye.*

VISUALS

Nicki's Bikini

The waterfall she jumped from is the bottom to your left.

Mai :)

Neeki Sahn....

*Read...... ^__^*

The ride to the airport was a silent one for the Maraj/Samules family. Nicki was driving so she wouldn't get motion sickness. Safaree stared out the window through his LV shades. And the kids were quiet from sadness. Nicki and Safaree had told them months ago that today was coming and kept reminding them but as all kids do it went in one ear and out the other.

Safaree and Nicki stayed up all night talking about different things. The past, the future. The kids were a big topic. How Safaree was going to handle being a single parent for the next four months. He said he could manage but Nicki had made arrangements for both their moms to pop up from time to time. Of course Safaree had no idea of these arrangements. She trusted Safaree but the mother in her wanted to take extra precautions.

Nicki looked over at Safaree. She would miss him a great deal. All the late night talks and great laughs they shared. His warm embrace she would miss the most. She knew she was always safe with him around. Nicki reached over and grabbed his hand to hold. Safaree looked up and gave Nicki a half smile then went back to staring at nothing in particular out the window. Nicki slowed down due to traffic. She looked back at her children. Zaria was rocking her LV shades like her dad. Daria had a scowl on her face and Ethan looked like he was losing his best friend. Nicki turned around quickly to keep her emotions in check.

Pulling up to the private entrance to the airport Nicki pulled out her ID to show the security guard.

"Hello Ms. Maraj." the guard greeted.

"Hello Frankie. The car behind us has my luggage in it." Nicki said looking back at Candi and Lauren through the side mirror.

"No problem. You know the way. Have a safe flight." he handed her back her ID and she pulled off.

Nicki pulled up 50ft away from the plane and put the car in park. The only noise you heard was from the planes taking off and landing.

"Say something baby." Nicki said.

"Let's hurry up and get you on the plane." He hopped out the car quickly. Nicki let out a loud sigh and followed. Nicki got the kids out of their booster seats so she could give them one last hug before she left. She bent down to there level.

"Mommy is going to miss you guys." Nicki said holding back tears.

"Mommy you only have 120 days until you comeback."

"Mommies smart girl. How did you know that."

"Daddy helped me count this morning because I was sad." Zaria hugged her mother.

"It's okay baby. Keep counting down the days, mommy will count too okay."

"Okay mommy." Zaria let go.

"Come here Toot." Nicki reached her hand out to grab Daria's pulling her closer. "Aren't you gonna hug mommy?" Nicki said knowing Daria was mad she was leaving. Nicki hugged her getting no embrace back. Daria moved away from Nicki quickly.

"Daria Rea-" Safaree started to scold her for her attitude but was cut off by Nicki.

"Safaree let her be." Nicki watched as Daria stood next to her sister and held her hand.

"It'll be okay Daria." Zaria hugged her sister which made a tear escape and stain Nicki's cheek.

"Ma'am you have to board if you want to be the first on the plane." A crew member explained to Nicki.

"Mommy please don't go." Ethan threw his arms around Nicki's neck. That was the straw, Nicki clutched him tight and cried. She didn't want to leave them but she couldn't just uproot them from school to take half way around the world.

"Mommy has to go but she'll think of you everyday baby." Nicki said meaning every word.

"Mommy please." Ethan was crying just as hard as Nicki.

"Ma'am." the guy said.

"Can't you see she's talking to her kids? Back away man." Safaree said irritated with the man.

"Mommy has to go Ethan." Nicki said rubbing his back.

"No." he held on tighter.

"Safaree-" Nicki managed to mutter. Safaree came and in one swoop pried Ethan from Nicki. Ethan began kicking and screaming. Nicki turned so she wouldn't see the hurt in Ethan's eyes. Lauren helped the girls into their seats. Nicki hugged Candi and Lauren and they headed back home. That just left Safaree for her to say goodbye too. She heard the car door close and seen him round the corner from behind the car. She could hear Ethan's screams.

"I shouldn't go Safaree." she was still crying.

"You have too." He wrapped his arms tightly around her. She gladly welcomed him. "Everything will be alright Nicki.

"Let them know I'll call every night and we can Skype too. I don't want to leave them, I don't want to leave you." Nicki said.

"You aren't leaving forever baby." Safaree was trying not to let his true emotions show. A part of him wanted to put her back in the car, drive her home, put her in their bed with their kids and watch movies like they always did but he knew he couldn't be selfish. Nicki had trained hard for this movie roll and it wouldn't be fair to her nor her fans if he were to be selfish. Nicki pulled back and removed his sunglasses.

"Tell me how much you love me."

"I love you to the moon and back. If i were to ever lose you it would be like taking my oxygen away. You are me and I am you." Safaree brushed her hair from her face. Nicki kissed him like there was no tomorrow. When they finally pulled apart Nicki knew she had to go. This was a commercial flight.

"I love you Safaree. Take care of our kids and yourself." She gave him a brief kiss slid on her Sunglasses and walked away quickly.

Safaree go tin the car and sat there until she got onto the plane then drove off.

Nicki sat in her seat and watched the tail lights of her car disappear. She said a silent prayer for her family then watched as the passengers began to board the plane. Nicki hoped this would be a smooth flight, no questions, no autograph's.

Shanghai, China

When Nicki arrived she was the last one to get off the plane. Her security guard Neil met her at the plane and helped her down the stairs and into the car. It was 2am and she was happy because all she wanted to do was sleep and forget about the scene she left in New York. Riding through the streets of Shanghai she looked at all the closed shops and the young people taking advantage of the night life.

They pulled up to the villa she would be residing in for her stay in China. It would be a couple of days that she would be in a different city in China where she would stay in a hotel and at some point she will be going to L.A. to shoot two or three scenes. She still hadn't decided if she wanted to let Safaree and the kids come see her because she didn't want to put her children through any emotional turmoil especially like this morning.

She was met at the door by a small woman. She looked to be in her early sixties.

"Hello Nicki." Nicki smiled at the pronunciation of her name, Neeki. The Barbz are gonna cackle when I tell them.

"Hello.." Nicki stopped wanting the lady to give her a name.

"I am Jun." she offered her hand which Nicki shook.

"Hello Jun. Is this your property?" Nicki asked stepping inside.

"Yes. I hope you find it pleasant to live in for your stay." She watched Nicki look around the first floor.

"I'm sure I will."

Jun showed Nicki to her room and then briefly showed her around the house.

"Well I can see you are tired from your long flight so I'll leave you be. The refrigerator is stocked as well as the cabinets. Of course you will have to go get your own groceries after you run out."

"I understand."

"Alright Ms. Nicki."

"Please just Nicki."

"Nicki have a nice night."

"You do the same." Nicki walked her to the front door locking it. She turned out the lights downstairs and headed back to her room to call Safaree. He picked up on the first ring.

"Hi gorgeous."

"Hi handsome." She sighed hearing his voice.

"How was your flight."

"It was like any other flight. How are the kids?" She asked putting the phone on speaker so she could disrobe.

"Ethan has been crying off and on and the only time it's off is when he sleeps. Daria has been quiet and Zaria has been talking my ear off about you and what you are going to bring her back." Nicki laughed at the last part.

"Where is Ethan now?"

"Laying next to me sleep." Safaree looked over at his son sprawled out on the bed.

"I feel horrible for leaving them."

"No Nicki you won't do this to yourself for the next four months. They will be fine and so will you."

"What about you? Will you be fine?" Nicki slid underneath the covers. She heard Safaree let out a deep sigh.

"As long as you're happy and our children are safe, I'm fine." he said telling half of the truth.

"I wish you were here to hold me, this house is creepy."

"You're just a scaredy cat." Safaree teased.

"Sure am." she giggled. "I love you baby."

"I love you more. Get some sleep and call around 8:30am your time to tell the kids goodnight."

"Okay. Give them kisses for me and make sure Zaria doesn't have any sugar after seven or she won't go to sleep until ten then it will be hell trying to get her up in the morning for school." Nicki didn't want the conversation to end. "Oh and the kids are supposed to bring the snacks this week. I left a list of the approved snacks on the refrigerator. Safaree please don't forget them that's all I need is for Karen to start complaining."

"Nicki-"

"And Daria needs to work on her reading, she's been getting lazy lately with it. Oh and she has tutoring-"

"Monday through Thursday from three to four-thirty." Safaree finished her sentence.

"Yeah." She sighed. "Okay I guess that's it, if i think of anything else I'll call."

"I'm sure you will. get some rest and have fun shooting your movie. You'll see us in no time babe." Safaree reassured her.

"Goodnight."

"Night Doll face." Safaree hung up the phone first knowing Nicki wouldn't.

Somewhere in Downtown Los Angles

Michelle put the plate in front of the woman and sat her water on the raggedy night stand. Both women locked eyes. One set full of hatred and the other full of pity. In the distance a phone began ringing. Michelle quickly left the room closing the door behind her. She raced up a flight of stairs to her living room grabbing the phone off the receiver on the last ring.

"Hello." She answered out of breath.

"Um, Is this Ms. Tanner?"

"Yes this is Michelle Tanner."

"Hi this is Mrs. Jones from Wilson's Daycare."

"Oh hi Mrs. Jones. What pleasant surprise, I hope you've called with good news." Michelle said crossing her fingers.

"I actually am. I wanted to be the first one to tell you that me and the board have reviewed your resume and went over our notes from your two interviews. And seeing that you have excellent references, we think it would be great if you came to work for Wilson's." Mrs Jones said with much delight.

Michelle danced in place with excitement. "I'm very grateful for this opportunity. I would love to come work for you." Michelle gushed.

"Well I'll leave you to your evening. You will be receiving an email and a phone call from Mr. Graves my assistant within the next couple of days. You have a wonderful evening,"

"You too." Michelle hung up the phone.

"You need to think about this." A voice came from behind Michelle.

"Mother please." Michelle cursed herself internally for not locking her door. "Get back to your room now." she scurried back down to her room.

Michelle picked up her cell phone to tell her friend the good news. She sat on her smooth white leather couch as the phone rang.

"Hola."

"Bitch you are not nobodies Spanish." Michelle said rolling her eyes.

"Let me have my moment damn." Nina laughed into the receiver.

"So guess what I just found out?"

"What?"

"I got the job  at Wilson's Daycare in NY."

"That;s great Michelle. I know that was at the top of your list. So when are you moving?"

"As soon as possible. Whenever they send me all the final information I'll move back to my mom's old house."

"I'm gonna miss you girl."

"Don't go getting all emotional on me. I'm sure we will see each other again once I leave."

"Yeah I know. Well let me get off this phone and go make Quentin's dinner. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

"Alright, bye." Michelle hung up the phone and thought about all the plans she had for when she got to New York.

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Birthday Bash...

*Enjoy my darlings. Also there is a couple of new fics that I enjoy and thought maybe you would like as well there is True Games by @NisiCharice http://truegamesoflove.blogspot.com/ Also there is A Step Further & Head over Heels by @NickiConquers http://astepinthenameoflove.blogspot.com/ http://headoverheelsinlovewithonikafaree.blogspot.com/ *

Nicki and Safaree got in position for the sunrise attack. Nicki was wearing a pair of Safaree's camouflage shorts and a matching tank. She learned how to paint her face like the army men just for this event. Nicki slid her gun into her leg holster and looked over at Safaree who had a ski mask on top of his head not yet pulled down, he had on all black attire.

"You really ready for this because you know how they are?" Safaree asked Nicki one last time before they left the room.

"It was my plan Safaree of course I'm sure." Nicki said reaching for the door handle.

"Alright, then it's on." Safaree followed behind her. He watched her as her long thick ponytail bounced as she walked down the stairs. "Yo this is the most coonish shit you ever came up with." he said as they stopped in the front of two separate doors.

"That's why you love me right?" She turned looking up at him.

"That among others." he leaned down and kissed her lips.

"Let's do this, what's the time?" Nicki asked unholstering her gun.

"It's 6:58am., why you give me these to use? Why I couldn't have the gun?"

"Because you shoot like a bitch. Like you don't hit shit when you shoot." she whispered trying not to ruin the element of surprise. Safaree stayed quiet because the time they did go to the gun rage he hit everything but the paper assigned. "Nothing to say now eh?" she smirked.

"let's just do this."

Safaree pulled his mask down and waited for the cue. Seconds later there was a loud boom that came though there speakers in the house. Safaree and Nicki busted through the kids doors.

Nicki dived and rolled into Ethans room. She stood and dove sideways onto his bed shooting him with her Nerf gun. Safaree was in the girls room banging pots and pans like he was in a marching band.

The kids eyes popped open from their parents out burst. Ethan climbed under the covers trying to block his mothers attack but she snatched it and continued to shoot his small frame with the Nerf bullets. Zaria was sitting in her bed covering her ears from the noise of the pots. Daria hopped up and started running around with her dad yelling.

"Mommy stop!" Ethan whined running to the girls room with Nicki hot on his trail.

"Why?" She mocked his whining shooting him in his back and laughing.

Safaree was yelling out war cries and was slamming Zaria down on the bed while Daria was on his back slamming her little fist into his back trying to save her sister.

"Let her go daddy." Daria yelled out.

Safaree pulled Daria around and plopped her right beside Zaria and continued with his attack. Ethan was now running around in the girls walk-in closet.

"Aww come on Ethan take it like a man." A Nerf zoomed by his ear.

"Take it like a man." Daria repeated.

"We didn't ask for your help." Safaree told her while pinning her legs above her head.

"Ouch daddy." Daria began to cry.

Whack! Is what Safaree heard as Nicki threw the Nerf gun at his back. He turned around to see what her problem was.

"What the hell Nicki?"

"I told you not to hurt them." Nicki sprung onto safaree knocking him over onto the floor. She was getting good practice on her stunts. Her movie began shooting in two weeks.

"How you gone trade sides?" He said rolling her over and pinning her to the ground.

"Well you hurt my baby so you had to pay." she said squirming under him.

All three of the kids jumped on Safaree.

"Get off mommy." They all yelled out.

"Oh so it's turn on daddy day?" he fell to the side of Nicki.

Nicki scooted away and watched as her family rolled around in a blissful state. This is what she wanted on a permanent note. Safaree as her husband right by her side everyday with their beautiful children. She didn't want them to have to travel from house to house to see one parent. They deserved a complete family and if it took more blood sweat and tears than that's what she would sacrifice to make that happen for them. Nicki was jerked out of her thoughts by Zaria plopping her long body onto hers.

"I love you mommy."

"Mommy loves you too. Happy birthday baby girl."

"Hey it's our birthday too!" the other two stated leaving their father and running to their mothers side.

"I know. Happy birthday to you too." She engaged in a group hug with them.

"Hey I want love too." Safaree said feeling left out.

"Come here you big baby, mama has love left for you too." Nicki said opening her arms. Safaree crawled over to them and hugged them all. "I love all four of my babies." Nicki and Safarees eyes connected speaking all the words that weren't said.

Birthday Party

When the guest arrived to the birthday party they were met by Spongebob and Ferb. Safaree and Nicki were throwing the kids a costume birthday party. Nicki wanted for the triplets to be able to show their personalities and this was the perfect way. When the children arrived they would be taken into a room filled with different costumes for them to pick from.

The space they rented out was pretty big and they didn't use most of it. They had set up many different activity centers around the building. There was a jewelry making station ran by Nicki and Zaria. Safaree and Daria held down the Sports center where you could jump on a trampoline, paint your own basketball or soccer ball, and you could get into a boxing ring wearing big over sized gloves and go a couple rounds. There was a build-a-bear station so all the kids could leave with a stuffed animal with one outfit, more if the parent wanted to buy more. There was a photo shoot for the kids and parents to pick from five different scenes to pose in front of, also to take a picture with the birthday guests. There was an arts and crafts station where they could make pillows and decorate them. Also they could make masks, checker boards. And Ethan was holding down being the conductor of the train. He got to ride people around the building dropping them off at each of the stations.

"Ethan are you having fun?" Nicki asked when he dropped a couple of parents and little girls off at the Zee Design station.

"Mommy it's Conductor Ethan."

"Oh well excuse me, Conductor Ethan are you having fun?"

"Yes. I gotta go mommy. Where to?" he asked the little boy who had sat in the train cart behind him.

"Daria's Olympian center." he requested. Ethan pulled the string to the horn to signal he was on the move.

Nicki looked up to see all the kids uncles and aunts coming through the door. She gave all of YMCMB a lecture on how to act while in the presence of their kids peers and parents. This wasn't like their previous birthdays where they turned it into an adult party ten minutes after the cake was cut and played cards and what not. They had to act civilized for once in their coon lives as Safaree put it.

Wayne led the pack as they filed into the room. Nicki seen Nina and Quincy towards the back with their gifts for the kids.

"Nina bug." Nicki yelled out. Nicki stood up moving as fast as she could in her heels to Nina. She was dressed up as a toned down Betty Boop. "How are you my Darling?" Nicki hugged her.

"I'm doing great, I can't complain. How are you?"

"I'm doing better. Your nieces and nephew are going to love seeing you."

"So Nina is they only one you see?" Lauren asked.

"Yeah." Wayne cosigned.

"I'm sorry. Hi everyone thank you for coming." She went and hugged everyone. "You can take the gifts to Gift town. You might want to wait until Conductor Ethan comes around in the train so he can take you. he looks so adorable in his little outfit. Here he comes now." Ethan pulled up.

"All aboard. Hello Uncle Wayne, do you want to help ride the people around with me."

"Hell yeah."

"Watch your mouth." Nicki scolded.

"Sorry. Come on Ethan." Wayne said hopping in next to him. Everyone piled into the train.

"Ethan take them to Gift Town then take them to see your sisters."

"Mommy." Ethan whined.

"Oh, Conductor Ethan."

Ethan pulled off leaving Nicki standing by herself. She scooped out the place making sure everything was running smoothly. Her extra helpers were staying on top of keeping everyone smiling and busy. Nicki didn't want anyone to say her babies birthday party was a bust.

Nicki felt a pair of strong arms wrap around her waist tightly. The smell of Gucci cologne filled her nose.

"You better let me go before my man comes and handles you." Nicki said resting against the broad chest behind her.

"I can handle your man with ease." Safaree said kissing the top of her head. "Are you having fun?"

"As long as my angels are having fun I'm good." Nicki said turning to look at Safaree. He had on a Woody Costume, chaps and all.

"You look good in your cowboy outfit baby."

"Yeah? You should see me in my birthday suit, I look even better." He whispered in her ear then kissing her neck. Nicki removed herself from his embrace.

"Don't start Safaree." She walked away frustrated.

Safaree regretted bring up sex knowing how she felt about it lately. He went to go apologize.

"Daddy Daddy." He looked to see Daria running full speed at him. He picked her up once she made it to him.

"You having fun Toot?"

"Yes. This is the best birthday ever daddy."

"Glad you love it. let's go see Zee."

He walked over making his way through the crowd. Everyone stopped him to have a conversation it seemed or to tell Daria happy birthday. They finally made it to Zee Designs. Zaria looked up and smiled.

"Sissy, here." Zaria stood up giving Daria a necklace she had made her.

"Thanks Zaria." Daria said putting the necklace on.

"Here you go daddy." Zaria made him a pink diamond ring for his pinky.

"Coon I love it. Best piece of jewelry I've ever gotten." Safaree slipped it on. "Perfect fit."

"Mommy has a matching one."

"Excuse me mister Samules." A young girl said.

"Yes." He turned around to see it was one of the workers.

"It's time for the food."

"Alright, Thank you." Safaree went to go find Nicki. She was standing on the other side of the room talking to Nina, Lauren, Candi and one of the moms she got along with. "Nicki it's time for the food. Hey little sis."

"Hey big brother." The siblings embraced.

"Okay Safaree let's go make the announcement." Safaree took her by the hand and led her over to the intercom system.

"Baby I'm sorry for earlier. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable." He said helping her step onto the train platform.

"I know, just drop it Safaree."

 He clenched his jaw knowing she was still agitated. He stood on the platform next to her putting on a fake smile. Nicki picked up the walkie that was hooked up to the PA system through out the room.

"Break breaker 1 9, break break breaker 1 9. All my-" Safaree snatched the walkie from her.

"Calm the nonsense." Everyone laughed except Nicki. "Alright you guys it's now time to feed the small ones. We can get them situated then the grown ups we have food for you as well. So if you would all hop onto the train Conductor Ethan will take you to Chow Down Town. Thank you again for coming to celebrate Zaria, Daria, and Ethans 5th birthday." Safaree put the walkie down and got down off the platform.

"Oh so you not going to help me down?" Nicki said with her hands on her hips. Safaree stopped and back tracked extending his hand. When she stepped onto the second step which put her eye level with him he blocked her from continuing on.

"Listen and listen good. You will not make today about you. So you can check that funky ass attitude that's brewing right now. I said I was sorry even though I don't know why I am apologizing, It's normal for a man to want to be intimate with his woman. You will not ruin today for me or our children, you got that?" He said through gritted teeth. Nicki stared him in the eyes seeing that he was not playing. She softened her face.

"Yeah I got it Safaree." Seeing that he got his point across he let her pass. She sat in the very last cart on the train still staring at him. Lauren leaned back.

"What was that all about Nicki?" She asked eyeing Safaree who was now talking to the owner of the building.

"Nothing." She looked down at her hands.

"Daddy come on." The triplets said in unison which made the room break out in Awws. Safaree hopped in next to Nicki and Ethan pulled off.

That Night

Ethan was playing with his new train set in the front room that Wayne had bought him. Wayne also bought him a train display that would be installed in Ethans room in the upcoming week. Zaria was still in her Indian costume from earlier. Daria was teaching her how to play Soccer on the new soccer machine Nicki and Safaree got her.

"Alright mommies babies time for baths. Ethan go in mommy and daddies bathroom and get in the tub and girls you go get in your bath tub."

"Yes mommy." Daria said. The girls held hands walking up the stairs to their room. Ethan ran to the master bedroom undressing on the way there. He loved their tub because it was so big, he played submarine in it.

 Safaree was sitting on the couch going over Nicki's itinerary for when she was in China next week. She was going to be gone for four months. Safaree didn't think she understood what that was gong to do to him. She was so worried about how it would affect the kids but never did she ask him if he was okay. Nicki came downstairs after putting the kids to bed and sat next to Safaree.

"Baby I'm sorry about earlier today, I overreacted." She stared at him but he didn't look up from the papers.

"It's okay." Was all he said. Nicki gently pulled the papers from his hands getting his attention.

"Safaree talk to me."

"Nicki all I want to do is make love to you but every time I touch you I get scolded for it or i get told "You just like these other niggas just tryin to get something from me" are you serious? I know what happened to you was messed up but I'm not him." Safaree was so frustrated.

"I know you aren't him baby. It's just what he gave me-"

"What he gave you is gone and has been for over three weeks. The doctor cleared you and gave you the okay." Safaree said. Nicki just sat there.

"You don't know how I feel Safaree. I feel guilty you have to love a woman that had an STD. I've never been through this before."

"I'm here to help you, and I'll always be here. I'm not ashamed of you Nicki. I know you are not some hoe that just fucks dudes just to be fuckin. You loved him and he did you wrong." Safaree wrapped his arms around her. "I'm not going to pressure you because obviously this has you really shook. Let's talk about something else." he suggested.

"Well I leave for China in a couple of days." She laid with her back to his chest.

"Anything but that?" SB said.

"What?"

"I don't want you to go. I just got you back and now you are leaving for four months."

"They'll go by quick Faree. Please don't make me feel bad for this."

"Never, just trying to put my feelings out there like you told me to do."

"I love you Safaree. I don't know what I would do with out you."

"You'd be lost! I love you way more. Come on lets go get in the shower and then I'll put you to bed."

"Safaree." She said side eyeing him.

"I don't mean like that, I mean actually put you in the bed and go to sleep."

"Oh, okay then let's go."

Safaree meant exactly what she thought but didn't want to start a whole other argument. If he had to wait four months to make love to her then that's just what he had to do. He turned out the lights and made his way to his bedroom to be with his woman.

*Ugh it took forever to finish this chapter. Hope you liked. Comment. 50+ this time. Sorry for the long breaks.*

After Burn...

*[Looks guilty] Hi.... Hope you enjoy*


The sun was shining through the big bay windows of suite 1814 of Trump Towers, but it wasn't bothering the couple occupying it. Both laid there just staring at the other in the eyes. They were connected, not in the physical sense, neither were touching the other but spiritually they were connected at the moment. The way he felt was the way she felt. Both hearts felt the same joy and pain. The two spoke with their eyes, telling what the mouth wanted but wouldn't dare.

He made contact by moving a strand of hair out of her face that was blocking his great view of her. She kissed his palm before he moved it back by his side, never once breaking eye contact.

"You're doing it again." Safaree said. Nicki adjusted in the bed they were sharing.

"What do you mean?"

"You've locked me into staring at you like we used to do." Nicki smiled.

"I'm sorry." She said still staring at him."

"You know we have to call and check on our kids."

"I know but a little longer. I don't want to hear moms mouth just yet."

"Will you be mad if i break our moment, we need to eat."

"Nooo, we can last a little longer."

"Nicki your stomach has been making noises for the past hour."

"You heard that?"

"Yeah. Let me order us some food and you go take a shower."

"Am I funky?" She raised her arm high. Safaree leaned over and sniffed.

"You've smelled better." he wrinkled his nose. She hit his chest.

"Hey, you love my funk." Nicki drew her bottom lip into her mouth smiling at him.

"Yeah I do." Safaree leaned over and pulled her into a kiss. "Go wash yo ass." He popped her on her butt and rolled out of the bed.

Nicki stretched out in the bed., still in the sweats she wore out of the church the day before. She sat up and watched Safaree move about in the front area of the suite. The urge to pee hit her so she jumped up and went into the bathroom. After releasing her bladder she washed her hands and began brushing her teeth. Still brushing she went and turned on the shower, adjusting the temperature to just below "hot as hell". Going back to the sink she rinsed her mouth out then disrobed, her thoughts went to Damon.

Safaree was out in the living room setting the small table for the food when it arrived. He went to change the sheets, he had housekeeping bring up extra sheets the night before so they wouldn't be disturbed. After tidying up the suite Safaree got undressed and decided to hop in the shower but noticed Nicki still hadn't finished up. He walked in the bathroom being hit with a cloud of steam. When he made his way to the glass shower he seen Nicki vigorously rubbing at her skin with her towel. He could here her cries. Safaree opened the shower door and watched her for a second. He reached for her but she pushed him and kept scrubbing at her skin.

"Nicki what are you doing?"

"I can still smell him on me. Make it go away, please." She said through tears. "I can't get it to go away, baby make it go away." She pushed the towel into his hands. He stood for a second trying to process what was going on. "Safaree please." She begged. He began rubbing her body with the cloth. "Harder." he scrubbed a little harder. She poured more of Safaree's body wash on the towel, that was all she had to use.

"Nicki everything is going to be okay." Safaree reassured her. He didn't want to keep going at her skin the way he was. Her skin was sensitive and she would be red all over if he kept this up. "He's gone you don't have to see him ever again." Safaree held on to her letting her know she wasn't alone, she latched on to his body.

"Don't ever leave me, please? I'll do better than last time, just please don't go." She looked up at him with the water still pouring over her head mixing in with her tears.

"I'll never leave you again. I mean that."

The Next Day

Safaree had finally convinced Nicki to go home after much back and forth. They were currently sitting in the car in front of the house. Nicki was scrolling through her phone. Every time Safaree suggested they get out she would say "One minute", they were on the 12th minute. Safaree was getting agitated because he wanted to see his kids and she was playing around. Safaree opened the door and Nicki's hand flew to his arm.

"Where are you going?" She asked.

"In the house, this is dumb. I want to see my kids."

"And you think I don't?" She let go of his arm.

"Well come on baby there is nothing to be afraid of in there. Everyone is excited to see you." He said stroking her cheek.

"How are they excited if they don't know I'm coming?" She squinted her eyes at him.

"Maybe I might have sent out a txt saying you were coming home." Nicki rolled her eyes. "But baby everyone was so worried and blowing me up asking when you were gonna come home. I had to tell them."

"It's okay babe let's go in, I wanna see my babies." she put her phone in her purse.

They got out the car and headed towards the door. Safaree took her keys and unlocked it letting her step inside first.

When Nicki walked in she heard a lot of commotion coming from the kitchen and living room area. The house looked in decent shape. All her wedding gifts were siting in front of the closet and most of the front entrance. She instantly got sad until she heard Zaria screaming her name and running towards her. Nicki dropped her purse and fell to her knees holding out her arms for an hug.

"Mommy I missed you." Zaria screamed and ran into her mothers arms.

"Not as much as I missed you baby." Nicki planted kisses all over her face.

"Mommy can I have a snack?" Zaria asked. Nicki chuckled at her daughter, she missed these moments.

"Yes baby, you can have a snack."

"So you don't love your daddy no more?" Safaree said looking hurt.

Before Zaria could answer there was a loud crash and a scream. Daria's soccer ball came rolling to a complete stop in front of Nicki. Daria rounded the corner smiling and stopped when she seen Nicki. Mama Carol came from around the kitchen counter holding her chest. The loud crashing of Nickis China plates had startled her.

"Daria just wait till your mother gets home and I tell her what a rotten child you've been" Mama Carol stood next to Daria and followed her eyes and meet Nicki's. "Nicki." She said just above a whisper.

"Hi mama." Nicki said standing up.

Her mother walked to her wrapping her arms around her tightly, Nicki returned the gesture. Safaree seen it was a mother daughter bonding moment and took the kids into the front room. They held each other for awhile but only seemed like seconds to Mrs. Carol. She had been worried for the past couple of days not knowing where her baby girl was.

"Are you okay?" Mrs. Carol asked holding the side of Nicki's face.

"As okay as possible. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you mama."

"Shh, hush child. It wasn't your fault. Come on into the kitchen and let me cook for you."

"I would love that but I'll wait in the living room, i want to spend time with the kids."

"Alright I'll call you when it's ready." She kissed Nicki's cheek then walked into the kitchen. "Safaree you eating?" She yelled over her shoulder.

"Yes mama." he yelled back.

Nicki walked in and seen Safaree picking up the broken plates while the children were siting on the couch watching him. Nicki picked up Ethan and sat in between the girls.

"Hi mommy." Ethan said resting his head on her chest.

"Hi mommy's baby. Have you been good for Nana?" She kissed the top of his head.

"Yes. You okay mommy?"

"Yes baby, I'm okay."

"Is Nana cooking soup?" Zaria asked.

"I don't know baby."

Zaria got done off the couch and went and sat with Safaree. He had found a basketball game to watch but Zaria picked up the remote and turned it to Nick Jr.

"Um excuse me big head I was watching that." Safaree said as Zaria climbed on his stomach and sat. She leaned down and kissed his cheek and went back to watching TV. "Ain't this about a bit-" Zaria looked at him as if daring him to finish his sentence. "Don't pay not one bill.." Safaree mumbled.

"Mommy" Daria said in a small voice.

"Yes Toot?"

"I'm sorry for breaking your plates." she stood up on the couch walking to Nicki and gave her a kiss.

"It's okay baby.

"I missed you guys." She pulled all three of her children into a hug. Ethan spoke up.

"Mommy can we play the new game uncle T got us for the Kinetic?"

"Sure baby." He jumped up and went to set it up.

"You have to take off your heels, no girl stuff."

"Hey I'm a girl." she whined as she took off her shoes.

"Mommy." he whined looking at her like his father would.

"OK. OK." She smiled.

Nicki stood next to Ethan and listened to him explain how to play the game.

"Safaree come help me in the kitchen." Mrs. Carol Said.

"Yes ma'am." he followed behind her.

He sat on the stool and watched her stir something in a big pot. If his nose served him correctly she was making her seafood gumbo. He watched as she took her time getting everything ready, he knew she needed to talk to him but wouldn't rush her.

His stomach began to growl. He looked up to see if Mrs. Carol had heard it, their eyes met and he got his answer.

"Hungry?" She asked raising an eyebrow.

"Just a little." She smiled sliding him a bowl of sausages she had cut up.

"Don't get greedy, i know how you can eat." Safaree too the bowl and dug in. "So did you to get a chance to talk?" She slid the deveined shrimp into the boiling pot of seasonings.

"Yes ma'am." was all he said before stuffing two more pieces of sausages into his mouth.

"And?" she waited for him to finish chewing. He picked up another piece and she snatched the bowl. "If you don't stop playing with me boy I'll bet you like you're my own."

"Alright geeze. She's scared to say the least."

"Of?"

"Her health for the most part, the effect this will have on the kids, her image. She doesn't know how to spin this. I told her to stop thinking about all that and just worry about our family."

"Our?" Mrs. Carol raised a eyebrow again.

Safaree grinned and looked away.

"Yes our. I won't give up again, so get rid of all that worry. We will be okay, I'm going to take care of my family."

"I'm not worried Safaree. I know you will protect them at all cost. Just don't let her run you, keep a backbone because i know how my daughter can get." She slid him the bowl back. "Now when are you two going to go get tested?"

"I'm calling tomorrow for an appointment. Hopefully we can get in tomorrow or the next day."

Mrs. Carol went to grab the bowl to put the sausages into the pot and was met with basically nothing left.

"Didn't i tell you not to be greedy?"

"I'm a growing boy." he said getting up and kissing her on the cheek and leaving out of the kitchen.

She went and grabbed the other link out of the fridge and cut it up.

"They'll be alright." She said to herself then started humming an old Gladys Knight song.

Later that Day

Nicki and the kids had played games up til her mother called for them to eat dinner. After dinner Safaree got the kids ready for bed, letting Nicki go unwind in her room. She showered then laid across her bed when she heard a knock on her door.

"Come in mom."

"Now how did you know it was me?" her mother entered the room shutting the door behind her.

"You're the only one that knocks around here." She smiled and patted a spot next to her. Mrs. Carol climbed up on the bed and sat her back against the pillows. Nicki laid her head in her mothers lap.

"How you feeling baby?"

"Confused, nervous, scared. I don't know how to handle all this mommy. What do I tell my Barbs that I might have an STD that I can't get rid of?"

"Baby I'm sure you don't have anything to worry about."

"But what if I do?" tears began to fall.

"Then you tell them the best way you figure out. You have the most loyal fans I've ever seen. They won't leave you." She stroked Nicki's hair. "Remember that song you sang on your Second album?"

"Which one mommy?" Nicki tried to think back.

"The one about that dead white woman." Nicki laughed through her tears.

"Marilyn Monroe mom?"

"Yea that one. Remember those lyrics, "If you can't handel me at my worst you can't get my best", baby your fans have been through all your highs and lows. They will stick with you through this as well." She leaned down and kissed her forehead.

"Thank you mommy, i needed that."

"Now that we have that out the way, let's talk about when you are going to tell Damon about you cheating too."

Nicki blew out a big breath.

"I don't know mommy. I don't think I can look at him anytime soon."

"Why? He did the same thing you were doing only with a man."

"But he didn't use protection. At least i had the decency to do that with Safaree and him."

"I know but you still have to tell him. And it's better for you to tell him sooner than later so you can remove him from your life and move on from this."

"I hear you mom, give me a day or two to get my thoughts together and i promise ill talk to him by the weekend."

"Okay. Well I cleaned up downstairs so you don't have to worry about that. Now the kids rooms are all yours."

"Thanks mommy for everything. You didn't have to step in and help with the kids while i was gone but you did. Since they were born you have been going above and beyond what a grandmother should do. I don't want you to think you aren't appreciated." Nicki sat up in the bed and hugged her mother.

"Don't worry about it, I'm always happy to help especially when it has to do with my grand babies. Now I'm going to head home."

"Alright, call me when you get there and give daddy a kiss for me."

"Goodnight and I will." Mrs. Carol got out of the bed and headed out the room as Safaree opened the door.

"See I told you nobody but you knocks." they both laughed leaving Safaree clueless.

"Night mama Carol."

"Goodnight Safaree."

"Do you need me to walk you out?"

"No I'll be okay." She said walking down the stairs.

"I'll be right back Nicki." he said walking behind Mrs. Carol. "Now you know i wasn't going to let you walk out this door by yourself."

"I knew you wouldn't be far behind." She grinned as he helped her with her coat.

He helped her into her car and watched from the door as she pulled off down the street not closing the door on the cold December weather until her tail lights were out of view.

Walking back up the stairs he checked in on the girls sleeping peacefully in their bed. He looked in Ethan's room and seen him sprawled out all over his bed. Safaree made his way to Nicki's room knocking on the frame to get her attention, she was flipping through her Bible. It was a worn out white Bible, he wanted to get her another one but she had had that one since she first got baptized and refused to part with it.

"Come in."

"I was just coming to say goodnight. I'll see you in the morning."

"Where are you going?" She asked.

"I'm going to sleep in the guest room."

"Why? Stay with me." She said.

"Are you sure? I don't want you to rush into anything before you're ready."

"Safaree please stay with me, I don't want to be alone." She put her Bible back in her night stand and pulled back the sheets for him.

"Let me go shower before i get in the bed."

"Fine but hurry I'm sleepy and i want you in bed when i fall asleep."

"Okay I'll hurry." He went in her bathroom and started the shower. He looked around for some soap that wasn't Nicki's but had no luck. "Guess Japanese Cherry Blossom it is."

30 minutes later he was getting comfortable in bed. Nicki scooted closer to him nuzzling into his chest.

"You smell good." She giggled.

"Hush and go to sleep." he said holding her close and tight.

"Goodnight." She said putting her leg over his.

"Night Nicki." He made sure she was sleep before he drifted off himself.

A Week Later

Nicki laid in her bed staring at her ceiling. She couldn't bring herself to get out of the bed after reading what came in the mail. After Safaree stormed out of the room when she screamed at him she laid down and became numb to all emotions. Nicki felt nothing at this moment in time. No tears flowed from her tear ducts. She bring herself to be angry, sadness didn't engulf her. She just felt nothing.

Nicki just kept hearing Safaree's words ring in her ears "Positive...". She rolled over and grabbed her cell phone and searched for a name she never wanted to speak to again and pressed talk.

"Fresh Market Incorporated this is Lisa speaking, How may i direct your call?"

"Can you get Damon Davenport please?" Nicki spoke into the receiver. Nicki sat up and twisted the bottom of her shirt as the phone rang.


"Damon Davenport." he answered. Nicki sat there frozen. She had no clue what to say to him. "Hello?" She stared at the phone. "Is anybody there?"


"It's me." She said in a voice barely audible.


"Nicki?" Damon asked in shock.


"Yes."


"How are you doing? I'm so sorry for putting you through all this, I've seen it all over the news. I never meant to humiliate you."


"We need to talk in person. Can you meet me somewhere?"


"I can meet you at the cafe we used to go to late at night in about 20 minutes. Will that work for you?"


"Yeah, 20 minutes." Nicki hung up the phone.


Willing herself to get out of the bed she slipped on a pair of her uggs, threw a snapback on and pulled her ponytail through the back. Slipping on her earmuffs she grabbed her keys and headed out the door.


Everyday Cafe


When Nicki walked in Damon was sitting in the booth they always occupied. She made her way to him. Damon stood as she approached, he tried hugging her but she stopped just short of his arms and looked at him like he was crazy. He dropped his arms and looked at his shoes, Nicki looked around. She seen that it was way to many people in the cafe for the conversation they were about to have.


"Lets go." was all she said before she turned around and made her way out the door. Damon threw a 5 on the table and hurried to catch up with her. He followed behind her until they approached Penn Station. Nicki walked in out of the cold New York weather and sat down on a bench. It was pretty empty at this time of day. Damon sat next to her and just waited for her to speak.


"There are a couple of things I need to tell you."


"Okay I'm listening." He said.


"Well first of all you need to go get checked out because I went to go get tested and I tested positive for Chlamydia." Nicki began to tear up finally speaking the words out loud for the first time.


"Nicki I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you."


"Yes you did. You never loved me, only using me for my money. Then you fucked around and gave me a STD. Don't say you never meant to hurt me because you damn sure weren't trying to protect me." She elevated her voice.


"Okay you're right. I didn't have the best intentions in the beginning but this is not what I wanted to happen. I didn't mean to put your health or career at risk. I know you see me as a monster at the moment but i promise you that's not what I am."


"Your promises don't me shit to me." She spat back while wiping her tears. Damon grew quiet. "There is nothing we can do about the situation now so let's just move on." She shifted in her seat. "I also need to tell you that you weren't the only one not being faithful in our relationship. About four months before the wedding i started messing around with Safaree."


"Wait you were fucking around on me and you just made me sit here and feel like shit about giving you an STD when you could have gotten elsewhere?" Damon had a scowl on his face.


"First of all nigga you did give it to me because Safaree doesn't have it. He received his test today just like I did and he was negative for everything because I was smart enough to use protection when having more than one sexual partner." Nicki hauled off and slapped him across the face. "I just thought i should tell you because it was the right thing to do. Now I don't want to ever see or hear from you again. Go back to your lover boy and have a gay life." she smirked at her word pay. Nicki pulled up the hood on her coat and turned and left him sitting there just staring at nothing in particular.


Wifey
I need you.


Safaree
On my way.


Nicki walked back to her car and headed home to smooth things over with Safaree. She didn't mean to lash out at him earlier but she was so embarrassed by her current state of health. Safaree never judge her but she felt so dirty and less of a woman because of what Damon had given her.


Pulling into the driveway she seen Safarees car already there. She smiled at the fact that he was always there when she needed him. Nicki rushed into the house so she could be in the safety of Safarees arms.

*Okay I know it wasn't much more to it but i needed to get it over with so i can clear this from any drama. I hope you liked it. I know you probably feel some type of way for Nicki having an STD but #DaKidAintNEVUHPredictuhable And it's something that could and does happen in real life. 45 comments...i'll go lower since i haven't been on in awhile Well Until next time...whenever that is.... ItsmarthaBitch!*

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After Burn...PREVIEW

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The sun was shining through the big bay windows of suite 1814 of Trump Towers, but it wasn't bothering the couple occupying it. Both laid there just staring at the other in the eyes. They were connected, not in the physical sense, neither were touching the other but spiritually they were connected at the moment. The way he felt was the way she felt. Both hearts felt the same joy and pain. The two spoke with their eyes, telling what the mouth wanted but wouldn't dare.

He made contact by moving a strand of hair out of her face that was blocking his great view of her. She kissed his palm before he moved it back by his side, never once breaking eye contact.

"You're doing it again." Safaree said. Nicki adjusted in the bed they were sharing.

"What do you mean?"

"You've locked me into staring at you like we used to do." Nicki smiled.

"I'm sorry." She said still staring at him."

"You know we have to call and check on our kids."

"I know but a little longer. I don't want to hear moms mouth just yet."

"Will you be mad if i break our moment, we need to eat."

"Nooo, we can last a little longer."

"Nicki your stomach has been making noises for the past hour."

"You heard that?"

"Yeah. Let me order us some food and you go take a shower."

"Am I funky?" She raised her arm high. Safaree leaned over and sniffed.

"You've smelled better." he wrinkled his nose. She hit his chest.

"Hey, you love my funk." Nicki drew her bottom lip into her mouth smiling at him.

"Yeah I do." Safaree leaned over and pulled her into a kiss. "Go wash yo ass." He popped her on her butt and rolled out of the bed.

Nicki stretched out in the bed., still in the sweats she wore out of the church the day before. She sat up and watched Safaree move about in the front area of the suite. The urge to pee hit her so she jumped up and went into the bathroom. After releasing her bladder she washed her hands and began brushing her teeth. Still brushing she went and turned on the shower, adjusting the temperature to just below "hot as hell". Going back to the sink she rinsed her mouth out then disrobed, her thoughts went to Damon.

Safaree was out in the living room setting the small table for the food when it arrived. He went to change the sheets, he had housekeeping bring up extra sheets the night before so they wouldn't be disturbed. After tidying up the suite Safaree got undressed and decided to hop in the shower but noticed Nicki still hadn't finished up. He walked in the bathroom being hit with a cloud of steam. When he made his way to the glass shower he seen Nicki vigorously rubbing at her skin with her towel. He could here her cries. Safaree opened the shower door and watched her for a second. He reached for her but she pushed him and kept scrubbing at her skin.

"Nicki what are you doing?"

"I can still smell him on me. Make it go away, please." She said through tears. "I can't get it to go away, baby make it go away." She pushed the towel into his hands. He stood for a second trying to process what was going on. "Safaree please." She begged. He began rubbing her body with the cloth. "Harder." he scrubbed a little harder. She poured more of Safaree's body wash on the towel, that was all she had to use.

"Nicki everything is going to be okay." Safaree reassured her. He didn't want to keep going at her skin the way he was. Her skin was sensitive and she would be red all over if he kept this up. "He's gone you don't have to see him ever again." Safaree held on to her letting her know she wasn't alone, she latched on to his body.

"Don't ever leave me, please? I'll do better than last time, just please don't go." She looked up at him with the water still pouring over her head mixing in with her tears.

"I'll never leave you again. I mean that."

The Next Day

Safaree had finally convinced Nicki to go home after much back and forth. They were currently sitting in the car in front of the house. Nicki was scrolling through her phone. Every time Safaree suggested they get out she would say "One minute", they were on the 12th minute. Safaree was getting agitated because he wanted to see his kids and she was playing around. Safaree opened the door and Nicki's hand flew to his arm.

"Where are you going?" She asked.

"In the house, this is dumb. I want to see my kids."

"And you think I don't?" She let go of his arm.

"Well come on baby there is nothing to be afraid of in there. Everyone is excited to see you." He said stroking her cheek.

"How are they excited if they don't know I'm coming?" She squinted her eyes at him.

"Maybe I might have sent out a txt saying you were coming home." Nicki rolled her eyes. "But baby everyone was so worried and blowing me up asking when you were gonna come home. I had to tell them."

"It's okay babe let's go in, I wanna see my babies." she put her phone in her purse.

They got out the car and headed towards the door. Safaree took her keys and unlocked it letting her step inside first.

When Nicki walked in she heard a lot of commotion coming from the kitchen and living room area. The house looked in decent shape. All her wedding gifts were siting in front of the closet and most of the front entrance. She instantly got sad until she heard Zaria screaming her name and running towards her. Nicki dropped her purse and fell to her knees holding out her arms for an hug.

"Mommy I missed you." Zaria screamed and ran into her mothers arms.

"Not as much as I missed you baby." Nicki planted kisses all over her face.

"Mommy can I have a snack?" Zaria asked. Nicki chuckled at her daughter, she missed these moments.

"Yes baby, you can have a snack."

"So you don't love your daddy no more?" Safaree said looking hurt.

Before Zaria could answer there was a loud crash and a scream.

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