Road to the Wedding Part.1....

*Hey everyone. I know the mood is down within the team because of earlier events, I hope this makes you a little happy. Know that Nicki still loves us, just give her time to breath. OK onto Story news, The next couple of chapters will not be the length that you are used to, don't crucify me for it. I'm sorry for the time span between chapters but everything has to be right and make sense. So if that requires extra time then that's what I'll do to make sure i give you quality. Well I hope you enjoy. Muah*

Nicki was on her way to have the children refitted for their wedding dresses and suit. She had been in full mommy mode lately. Her babies made her forget about the mess she had made of her life. Helping Daria get better at her reading was a task but she was determined to get her baby girl on track. Ethan had been up under her giving her all the love she needed, she loved how they have had a special connection since he was born. He hadn't let her out of his sight in the past couple days. Zaria had been talking her ear off about this wedding. Nicki now knew that Zaria did not approve of the color scheme and thought the icing she picked for the cake tasted funny.

"Mommy do I have to wear a suite like daddy?"

"Yes Ethan, we've been over this already."

"Why can't I just wear a t-shirt and sneakers like daddy?"

"Your daddy is not wearing that." She pulled up to the location. "Hell he might not even be there." she mumbled to herself.

"Mommy do me and Daria have to match?" Zaria asked eating her sucker.

"Yes." Nicki got out the car and retrieved them as well.

"But why mommy?" Daria whined.

"Why don't you want to match your sister?"

"She's ugly." Daria said as they got on the elevator.

"I look just like you." Zaria rolled her neck a bit and Nicki snickered. "So you're ugly too."

"Stop it right now you two. You are wearing the same color so deal with it." Both girls huffed. "Give me that sucker little girl." Nicki took the sucker wrapped it up and took a wipe out to wipe her mouth and hands.

"Aww mommy I didn't get the bubble gum."

"You have more at home to eat."

The elevator doors opened and they walked in to meet with Vera again.

Safaree

Safaree had went to go stay with his mother for a couple of days until he got his head together. He knew his mom would have an answer for whatever he was going through. He still went to go spend time with the kids during their lunch everyday. When he looked at his girls he saw so much of their mother, it was hard to look at them when he was mad at her. To Safaree his kids were his world he just wish he could add Nicki to his permanently.

Safaree knew what he was getting himself into when he started messing around with Nicki again knowing she was taken. He never thought he would fall even more deeply in love with her. Safaree thought he would treat there affair as he did the rest of the women he had messed with since her. But Nicki would never be like the basic women he has dated.

"Safaree get up." His mother  came in his room and snatched back the blinds letting in the rays from the sun.

"Ma no!" Safaree pulled the covers over his head and mumbled something inaudible.

"Yes and I mean now!"

Safaree felt the covers snatched from his possession.

"Why you trippin?" He yelled.

"Safaree Lloyd Samules if you ever live to see another day you bet not ever raise your voice at me again. Have you lost your mind?" She looked at him as if he were that little boy that use to run around getting into things around the neighborhood.

"I'm sorry ma, I didn't mean to disrespect you. What time is it?" He sat on the side of the bed rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.

"Now that's better. It's past noon, you missed the kids lunch today."

"Damn, I'll go see them tomorrow."

"Safaree you need to go see them today. A child should never go a day without seeing there mother or father."

Safaree just huffed.

"Now I don't know what's going on between you and Nicki but you better fix it and fix it quick. You know how she gets when your not around."

"And that's my problem why?" He got up to go start his shower.

"That's the mother of your children not to mention your best friend." She looked at him confused by his actions.

"Well everything is not always about Nicki and what she wants and needs."

"Since when? It's been that way since you two were 13 years old, so why is it changing now?"

"I need to start thinking about me and my kids. Nicki is moving on with her life and it doesn't have me figured in to it." he clenched his jaw. His mother walked to him and placed her hand on his face.

"Baby you still love her, you need to go tell her."

"It doesn't matter now, she made her choice."

"What does that mean "She made her choice"?"

Safaree just moved past her and looked in his duffle for clothes to wear for the day. He couldn't tell his mother about the affair.

"Well I see you have shut down and I'm not going to get anything out of you. Your lunch is downstairs in the microwave." She walked towards the door but Safaree pulled her into a hug before she got to it.

"I love you mama."

"I love you too. Now hurry up and get ready, you need to eat something you look frail." Safaree laughed and let her go.

"Alright ma I'll be down in a few."

Later that night.

Nicki Was making the kids plates for dinner, Zaria said she was craving sloppy joe. What Zaria knew about cravings was beyond Nicki but the others agreed so that's what her babies got. The triplets were in the front room when the doorbell rang.

"Hey you three quiet down in there." Nicki wiped her hands and walked to the front door. She didn't look through the peep hole to check to see who it was she just opened  the door. She was surprised to see who was standing on her front porch. "Hi." was all she managed to get out.

"Are the kids here?" Safaree asked showing he wasn't interested in small talk with her.

"Um yeah, come on in." She moved to the side to let him pass. She watched him disappear into the living room and heard the chipper sounds of the kids greeting their father.

Walking back into the kitchen she tried finding the words to apologize to Safaree for ever proposing the get involved with each other again.

"Mommy, mommy, can daddy stay for dinner?" Ethan was pulling Safaree by the hand into the kitchen.

"Naw E-man mommy probably wants to have time with you guys and Damon."

"Mommy please?" Ethan begged.

"if he doesn't have any plans it's alright if he stays." Nicki said turning around and putting food on Daria's plate.

"See daddy, so are you going to stay?" Ethan looked up at his daddy.

"Alright little man I'll stay."

"Yay." The kids yelled out.

"Go wash your hands ya little devils." Nicki ordered and made a crazy face at them. Daria returned an even crazier one before running off which shocked Nicki into laughter.

When the kids left the room there was an awkward silence between the two while Nicki put the plates on the table. Safaree just leaned against the island watching her, trying to figure out what to say but she beat him to it.

"Safaree I'm sorry." Nicki blurted out. Safaree stared at her for a second.

"Sorry for what?" he crossed his arms.

"For everything that has happened to get us to this point."

"And what point is that?"

"Where we can't even have a conversation that's not about the kids. We haven't spoken in days Safaree, that's not us. If i would have known that arrangement would hurt us as friends like this I would have never offered the idea."

"Yeah it was pretty selfish." Safaree said nonchalantly. Nicki was taken aback by his statement.

"I know, I'm trying to make things right."

I don;t think things can be right at this moment. Let's just get through this and I'll be out of you and Damon's home."

"Safaree please don't do this."

"Do what? What you asked? I'm giving you what you wanted."

"This is not what I wanted Safaree." She walked closer to him.

"You couldn't have possibly thought I wouldn't catch feelings while being intimate with you. You're lying if you say you did. Now we are here and can't go back. You chose Damon. The only thing I care about is my kids at this point." Safaree stopped when he heard the kids coming back so they moved away from each other. Nicki had tears in her eyes but wiped them quickly before the kids seen.

"You ready to eat daddy?" Zaria asked.

"Yeah baby girl, you gonna sit by daddy?"

"Yes." He pulled out her chair so she could sit then did the same for Daria. He always did gentlemen type things for his girls so they would know what they deserved from a man when the time came for them.

Nicki dropped his plate in front of him harder than was needed causing the children to jump.

"You can help your kids clean up after they are finished and put them to bed since you're in such a fatherly mood."

Nicki went around and kissed each of them goodnight then made her way upstairs. She couldn't be in the same space as him right now. She loved him and didn't like the feeling of being rejected by him. She pulled her finance book out to go over them and laid across the bed. Nicki slipped on her glasses but her phone rang before she could get focused.

"Hello."

"Hey baby, what you doin?"

"Nothing just going over the books. Where you at?" She leaned back against her pillows.

"On my way to you, why you going through your books?"

"Gotta make sure everything is going straight and everything is taken care of for the wedding."

"You need to get an accountant for all that stuff. I can get you one if you want, The accountant at my job is a very good one."

"No, I'm good baby."

"Okay suit yourself. Well tonight I got something for you." She could feel him smiling through the phone.

"Oh really? What do you have for me?" She put on her flirty voice.

"I can show you better than I can tell you."

"Well in that case I can't wait then." She giggled.

"Alright, well I'll be with you shortly. Love you."

"Love you too baby." She hung up.

@NICKIMINAJ
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Nicki fell asleep watching her TL speculate about what the wedding is going to look like. She didn't get the chance to put her finance book away.

Damon came walking through the door as Safaree was turning out the lights and headed home. Safaree was cordial but Damon knew something had changed in Safaree's attitude towards him. He would address it on a later date. Damon walked into the bedroom to find a sleeping Nicki sprawled out on the bed. He spotted the book next to her.

"Bingo." He slowly pulled the book from under her arm tucked her in and went to his study for the next several hours.

*Like I said the next couple of chapters will be short. I'm trying to get questions answered before the wedding. Do you feel like everything is clear and understandable so far? Is it getting predictable? I need to know these things people. lol 45 COMMENTS! Well hopefully you enjoyed. Until next time, Smooches.*

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The wedding was three weeks away and Nicki was more confused than ever. Her and Damon had gotten better and she had started to actually enjoy his company again. He went away with her for the month she had to go train for her movie. He helped her with the wedding plans while away, if she needed him to go take her finances while she was busy he didn't without protest. Then there was Safaree she just couldn't leave him alone, she needed him like the blues needs pain. It seems that month away from him only made her want him even more. When they were together with the kids it just felt right. Nicki knew he would lay down his life for her.

Nicki and Safaree met up with each other at the daycare to exchange the kids things. Nicki gave him Ethan's bag with a change of clothes in it because he was taking him to Ethan's friends house. Safaree brought Zaria's sweater to her. Not 10 minutes in each others presence and they were in the back of Nicki's Range getting busy in the schools parking lot. When it was over Safaree felt used, he told her it was the last time. He was done being her play toy whenever she felt like getting her jollies off. He got in his car and waited for the kids to be let out.

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Nicki walked into the house from picking up the girls from school, Ethan was going over a friends house for the afternoon. The girls ran into the house and up to their room; Nicki went into the kitchen and was startled when she seen Damon standing in front of the fridge.

"Shit! You scared me." she looked at him.

"Sorry baby." he walked over to her trying to kiss her but she turned her head. "What's wrong with you?" he looked confused.

"I think I'm coming down with a cold." Which wasn't a lie she was coughing lately.

"I don't care babe give me a kiss I've missed you." he leaned in but again was denied.

"I care." she moved around him to put her smart water in the fridge. "How long have you been home?"

"I got in at 12:30. When I didn't see you and the kids i showered and caught up on some sleep." he stood behind her and kissed on her exposed neck. "I will be here for about a week."

"Why didn't you tell me you were coming back today, i wasn't expecting you until next week?" she slid out of his grasp.

"I wanted to surprise you but it seems like you're just annoyed."

"I'm not annoyed."

"Obviously somethings wrong, you're being short with me." he leaned against the counter waiting for her to say something. "Well, tell me what's wrong."

"I told you nothing, just let it go Damon."

"No something has you upset with me and I don't need you mad."

"I said nothing so it's nothing." she tried walking past him but he grabbed her arm.

"Talk to me."

"Get off me." she tried breaking from his grip already knowing it was a lost cause. "You're hurting me." he let go but blocked her path.

"I didn't mean to hurt you but when you shut me out it makes me angry."

"What do you expect me to do? You are never here."

"Are we back to this again, i thought you got over that?"

"Back? Nigga we never left. I don't feel loved, do you understand that?" she raised her voice.

"Don't feel loved?" he repeated. "I tell you I love you all the time Nicki."

"Telling me and showing me are different."

"This is crazy." he backed up.

"What's up with Lesley?

"What about her?"

"You ever fuck her?" Nicki crossed her arms.

"Nicki you're being childish."

"Childish? There is a female in your room, who might I add I have never heard about nor met before and I'm childish for wanting to know if you slept with her or not?" Nicki said staring at him. "This woman has been around for a month and you have never once said anything about her and you expect me not to ask questions. You have left out of this city on several occasions for business" she did air quotes "in the past month. How am I suppose to react? So again I'm going to ask you one more time, have you cheated on me with this Lesley woman or any other woman since we have been together?" they locked eyes.

"Never once have I cheated on you with Lesley or any other woman Nicki." Nicki continued to stare at him trying to figure out if he was telling the truth but she couldn't get a read on him. "Now it's my turn to speak. You have to realize that I cannot cater to your every need Nicki. I try my best but I'm just one man, I try to be there for you as much as possible. I do love you Nicki, I wouldn't have asked you to marry me if I didn't. You have to trust me."

"I don't know who you are anymore. In these past months I can't name a single time where we have actually sat down and had a deep conversation with one another like we used to. You made time then so what's the problem now?" She waited for a response but he just looked at the floor. "Exactly, so are you sure you want to marry me?"

"Yes I'm sure. Nicki I..." he was cut off by his phone ringing. He picked it up and seen that it was his boss. "It's Mr. Wiseman."

"Answer it, I'm used to coming second." she walked passed him, he grabbed her hand but she snatched away and went upstairs.

"We'll finish this when I'm done." he answered the phone.

Nicki went upstairs to her room closing the door behind her. She picked up the phone to call her mom.

"Hello?"

"Mom i don't know if I can do this." Nicki said sitting on the side of the bed.

"Do what?"

"I don't know if I can marry Damon."

"What happened?"

"He's never here mommy. He makes promises he never keeps. I don't know what to do."

"Baby relationships are hard work. There will be times you can't stand him but you can't just give up because of it. Trials and tribulations are going to always pop up in a relationship no matter if it's with Damon or another you are with. It will never be a smooth ride. Do you still love Damon?"

"Yes mommy I do but he is never sensitive to my feelings. It's like i tell him something and it goes in one ear and out the other."

"Have you told him this."

"Yes on multiple occasions."

"Did you scream at him or did you tell him."

"What's the difference, I still told him."

"There is a big difference, If you screamed of course he wouldn't pay you attention. If you actually sat him down and said listen Damon this is what I need from you and this is how much of it i need. He would be more open to listening. But you yelling only shuts down the effective flow of communication."

Her mom was getting through to Nicki. She realized that when they did have the conversation she was mostly yelling at him. Now she had gone and accused him of cheating.

"You're right mommy. But I think I may have dug myself into a hole."

"What did you do?"

"Well I kind of accused him of sleeping with another woman and having a baby by one."

"Nicki."

"I know but I just have this gut feeling, and it keeps getting stronger and before I knew it i was confessing it to him."

"What did he say?"

"He says he has never slept with another woman."

"If you have no proof then don't bring it back up until you do. that's a very big accusation." Nicki sat and chewed her lip.

"I guess I need to go apologize. He's here for a week and I think I'll be apologizing for most of it."

"Well your mouth has always gotten you into trouble."

"I guess I learn one day."

"Won't be no time soon." Mrs. Maraj said laughing.

"Mommy." Nicki whined.

"It's true. Go and fix it and I will talk to you later."

"Okay, I love you."

"Love you too. Give my grand babies a kiss for me."

"I will and kiss daddy and lambchop for me." They hung up and Nicki went downstairs to find Damon. When she was about to walk out the room he was walking into the room. "Damon--"

"Nicki I'm really trying to make us work but you yelling never makes it easy."

"It's hard not to be mad and yell when you are always at work and never seem to make time for me. You drop everything when your job calls but when I need you you always have an excuse. This week I want to work on us while i have you here for the week." she wrapped her arms around him.

Damon groaned and sighed.

"What was that for?" Nicki asked looking up at him.

"I have to leave in a hour for a meeting."

Nicki dropped her arms.

"Let me guess, in Kentucky right?" She went back upstairs.

"Babe? I'll try to be back as soon as possible." he yelled.

He was meet with her door slamming shut.

Later that Night

Damon had to go check on the factory in Kentucky so once again she was left alone. She was pissed but that seemed to be her attitude lately. Nicki wondered what Safaree was up to, she called him.

Safaree was hanging out with his boys playing cards and drinking. He was unwinding from the hectic week he just had with Nicki. They had made appearances everyday this week on, radio shows, TV shows, she even did Watch What Happened to discuss the Real Housewives of Atlanta. That go a little messy because she got a tipsy on the show and start letting out too much of how she felt about the ladies.

It felt good to relax and not have to worry about running around and meeting Nicki's every demand. And he was also starting to feel bad because every spare moment they got he was buried deep inside knowing she wasn't a single woman. He didn't know what it was but he just couldn't get enough of her. It reminded him of when they were together. He was deep in thought when his phone went off, he saw it was Nicki.

"Hey, is something wrong with the kids?" he asked automatically. 

"No calm down they are fine. They went with auntie Candi for the night."

"Oh okay."

"What are you doing?" she had her legs up against the head board.

"With Rex and them, why you need me to bring you something?" he got up from the table  and went into another room, the music was to loud for him to hear.

"Define what you are willing to bring me." she said in a sultry voice. Safaree seen where this was headed and knew he had to stop it before it went to far.

"Nicki where is your fiancee?" he asked in a whisper.

"He just had an emergency conference he had to go to in Kentucky or I don't know, so he is somewhere in the sky. Come over and have fun with me daddy." she said in her pouty voice.

"No you have a man." he went back into the room and sat down watching the men play Spades, he wasn't trying to hear her tonight.

"Do you have your earphones with you?" she scooted away from the head board.

"Yeah why?"

"Plug them up to your phone."

"I don't have the ones with the mic, so you won't be able to hear me." he put some chips in his mouth.

"Just do it." 


Safaree sighed digging in his pocket for his ear bud Beats by Dre earphones, he plugged them in. 


"Safaree?" When he didn't answer she knew they were in.

Nicki had taken off her sweats. leaving her in nothing but her red lace thong and matching bra.

"Faree i wish you were hear with me right now. Holding me, among other things." Safaree knew he was slowly losing this battle. "Don't you want to touch me Safaree?" she was rubbing all over her body wishing they were Safaree's hands. "Come to me Safaree." he voice was dripping with lust. He thought about all the wicked things she could do with that tongue of hers. Nickis phone buzzed.

Safaree
No Nicki. I told you last time was it for us. STOP!

As quickly as she read the text she forgot it. "Now Safaree your not going to leave me hot, wet, and horny now are you?" she slipped two fingers into her center folds and began pleasuring herself. A moan escaped her lips which made Safaree shift in his seat. He looked around making sure no one was paying attention to him, they weren't.

"Mmmm Safaree." Nicki was laying it on thick. She wanted him and if she had to pull out the big guns she would.

Safaree
Stop Nicki, I'm around people.

"All the more reason to come see me, so I can help take care...Ooooo...that bulge in your pants." he looked down as he felt his pants getting tighter. He turned his attention back to her.

Nicki had dropped the phone next to her head and concentrated on her. She was working herself into a frenzy on her bed.

"Ahhh...Safaree." she moaned. "Ssss...." he could tell she quickened her pace by her breathing. "Mmmmmm...I...I need you Faree." he heard her cry out his name, then silence. Minutes later he heard movement on the other end. "I can go another three rounds are you going to make me go them alone?"

"Alright niggas, I'll catch y'all later." he jumped up from his seat.

"Where you goin?" Rex asked.

"I got business to take care of."

"At one in the morning?"

"Mind your business. Stay icy coons." Safaree text Nicki on his way out the door.

Safaree
I'll be over in 20. I'm not going easy on you this time either. ;)

Nicki
I'm starting round 2. Use your key.

Safaree hopped in his Bentley and took off hoping to make it by round three. "Damn she a freak." he said smiling.

After

"I've missed having your body whenever I want." Nicki was still straddling SB, kissing various spots on his chest.

Safaree just laid there staring off into space. He never thought he would be sleeping with another mans woman, this was truly a first.

"Why you acting like this?" he turned looking into her grey eyes, she was scowling.

"Acting like what?"

"Like you don't want to be here with me." Nicki pushed off him and got out of the bed with the comforter wrapped around her body. She headed to the bathroom. Safaree wrapped the sheet around his waist and followed her.

"Nicki what are  you talking about, did I not just spend the last two hours sexing you the way asked me too?" he was confused where her attitude was coming from.

"You used to hold me and tell me you loved me after we made love." she stared at him through the mirror.

That was before you were someone else's girl he thought. "What do you want from me Nicki? I'm doing what we agreed to when we first started this. No strings attached, no emotions, just sex, remember?" he felt like an asshole saying that to her knowing how he felt about her, but this was what she wanted.

"Are you telling me us being together these past couple of months has meant absolutely nothing to you?" I shouldn't have asked that she thought.

He'd be lying if he said 'no' so he just said nothing at all. if she wanted him she would have to say the words or better yet she would have to call off her wedding to Damon.

"Wow silence...um...wow okay." she started fidgeting. How could I be so stupid he dropped me back then so why would he want me now. Especially after seeing I'm a cheater. "I'm going to shower, you can let yourself out." She nudged him out the bathroom.

"Nic--"

"No Safaree, I get it. Please just go." She was tearing up.

"I didn't mea--"

"I'm a big girl Safaree. I asked for this and i can deal with the consequences." He reached for her but she closed the door quickly.

Nicki walked to the mirror and stared at the woman staring back. "You will not cry. You made the rules so deal. You caught feelings, so it's your problem not his... then why do I feel so betrayed?" Nicki walked dropping the comforter and turned on the shower waiting for it to get to the right temperature, she stepped in. "Why can't you just keep your emotions to yourself?" she thought. "Because I still love him." she finally confessed above a whisper to herself. Her tears spilled over onto her cheeks. "FUCK!" she screamed sliding down the shower wall. With the water beating against her body Nicki sat and held herself as she sobbed.


Safaree POV

"Shit." he thought. He didn't mean to hurt her, be he didn't want to put his feelings out there to be rejected. If he could redo the past five minutes he would.

Safaree listened from his side of the door as he heard her mumble something then the shower started up. Minutes passed and he heard her sobs, his heart ached listening to her. He jiggled the handle already knowing it was locked. Safaree knew she wouldn't open the door nor would she come out if she knew he was still there. He gathered his clothes and left the room.

Half an hour later Nicki had pulled herself together enough to stand. She showered quickly trying to get back to her bed. Wrapping herself and hair in her towel she went to find clothes. Looking at the bed when she came out she noticed the linen had been switched.

Nicki was sitting on the bed thinking to herself when Safaree came into the room. She thought he had left. Nicki wiped the tears from her face.

"Listen I didn't mean too hurt you." Nicki rolled her eyes.

"Just like a nigga." She rolled her eyes. "These tears aren't for you, there for me. Why are you still here?" She got under her covers.

"I needed to make sure you were okay."

"I'm fine now leave."

"Don't be like that." he sat on the side of the bed. Safaree reached out to touch her cheek but she batted his hand away quickly.

"Do not touch  me."

"I heard you crying in the shower, do you want to talk about it?"

"No I don't want to talk about it Safaree. Now leave." he was getting pissed at how cold she was acting towards him.

"You practically begged me to come over here now you acting like I ain't shit!" he raised his voice which made her sit up in the bed.

"That's because you not shit." she pushed his head with a great force. "Get the fuck out." She hit him again. "Safaree get out." she coldly stated. Nicki began slapping and punching him in his face while tears streamed down his face. "I hate you Safaree. I hate you!" Safaree grabbed her arms trying to take control of the situation.

"Calm down."

"Get off me!" she tried pulling away but he just held her close to his body. He wished he could hold her like this when she was calm but the issue still remained that she belonged to another. Even now looking at her left ring finger and seeing the ring he didn't put there tore at him. Safaree noticed she had stopped fighting him and now clung to his body. She was again crying.

"Why do I continuously want what I can't have Faree?" It's like I never learn then end up heartbroken and confused." Nicki confessed. "I'm such a basket case, I don't blame you for not wanting me." she lifted from his embrace. "I'll be fine, you can go." Nicki felt like a fool and was embarrassed he had seen her act this way. "And don't worry this was the last time I'll call you for anything like this. From here on out it is strictly professional between us. Neither of us need this headache."

Safaree got up from the bed. He wanted to know what she was planning to do about the wedding. "So what about Damon?"

"I'm going to marry him and live my life."

"Do you love him?"

"I'll learn too. My kids love him and that's who I need to be thinking about." If she was going to completely get over Safaree she had to learn to look at him as nothing more than a friend like she used too. Nicki looked up at him and noticed he was clenching his jaw.

"Fine." he turned and swiftly left the room then eventually the house. Nicki watched from her window as he pulled off into the into the night, she watched until she could no longer see his tail lights.

Nicki went into the girls room for no particular reason. She noticed that Daria had left Tubsie her stuffed Rabbit. She knew Candi was having a time getting her to go to sleep. She would take it to her tomorrow. She turned out all the lights and climbed into the bed letting the worries of the day go and fell asleep.


One week Before the wedding


Nicki pulled up her laptop to see what the barbz were doing. She didn't want them to see her so she didn't tweet anything she just read her TL. She saw people talking about "onikafaree" and "dricki" this normally didn't annoy her, but the fact that she was so confused but felt that Safaree was the one she really wanted, she got emotional over the barbz talking about it. She decided to tweet.  


@NICKIMINAJ: Tired of hiding my feelings. 


The tl went crazy. Nicki was tired and decided to call it a night. She laid her phone on her nightstand and climbed into bed. Just as her phone started going off Damon walked in. 


"Babe you going to sleep already?" Damon asked sitting on his side of the bed.


Nicki quickly turned her volume on her phone down and said "I have to get up really early and I don't want to wake you." 


He didn't think much of it. "OK babe." 


"Goodnight." 


"I love you Nicki." 


Nicki almost choked before saying it back... "I love you too Damon." she remembered that her phone had rung. She picked it up. 


@SCAFFBEEZY: Come home. 


She cried silently after reading this. She wanted to come home. She wanted to be with her kids and live with Safaree. She just wasn't ready to admit it to him or anybody.


"I'm going down to the studio to write, don't wait up for me." She left the room quickly.

She cued up everything and started playing the beats that different producers had given her. Before she zoned out completely she tweeted one last time.

@NICKIMINAJ
Emotionally: I'm Done. Mentally: I'm drained. Spiritually: I'm Dead. Physically: I smile.

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*It's been a month...wow! I'm sorry my darlings. I've been trying to get myself together in school and other things so i had to let go of the story for awhile, I hope you understand. *sigh* I hope you enjoy.*


Nicki woke up and was on a mission, she needed to find out who this Lesley chick was and was she a threat to her. She grabbed her phone and headed down to her study to call Phil. Nicki knew that they had been best friends since college but she was going to try her best to get it out of him. She dialed out and he picked up on the second ring.

"How is my beautiful soon to be sister-in-law?"

"She's doing fabulous, how about yourself?"

"I can't do to much complaining. Is that knuckle head Damon treating you okay?" this was her chance.

"Phil will you be honest with me?" she put on her vulnerable voice.

"I've never lied to you before so why would I lie now, what's wrong?" he sounded concerned.

"Is Damon cheating on me with his assistant?" the phone got quiet. She bit her lip and folded her legs up into the chair waiting on a response.

"No Nicki he is not cheating on you with her."

"Is it another woman?"

"No Nicki. Sis you have to stop stressing, you are the best woman he has ever had. He does not want another."

She sighed hearing the news but still feeling uneasy. She believed Phil was being honest but the feeling she thought would go away hadn't.

"Okay bro, well I have to go now."

"Oh so you just use me for information and get then get off the phone? I knew you didn't love me."

Nicki giggled.

"No it's not like that. I really do have things to do. Me and Safaree have to take the kids to the zoo. Ethan wants to go as a family even though they went a couple months back with Wilson's."

"My main man is running the house, that's what I like to hear."

"Shut up Phil, I gotta go. Thank you for answering my questions, I love you."

"Love you to sis, bye." he hung up.

Nicki sat for awhile in a trance trying to figure out her next move but was interrupted by Safaree plopping down on the couch next to her in the study.

"You could at least announce yourself." Nicki rolled her eyes.

"Since when have ever done that? The kids ready?"

"Don't get comfortable like we don't have boundaries, and yes they're ready." Nicki got up from the couch.

Safaree got up and grabbed her by the waist and kissed the back of her neck, she pulled away.

"Damon is still in the house, are you crazy?" she whispered.

"You smell good Nic." he pulled her back to him and kissed her lips.

She fought him for as long as she could before she gave in, his lips felt amazing against hers. Nicki drew him as close as possible to her until she heard foot steps and pushed away trying to fix her clothes. Damon popped his head in the door.

"Hey babe...Oh hey Safaree, I didn't know you were here."

"Yeah I just got here." Safarees gaze never left Nicki, she was fiddling with her necklace.

"What did you need babe?" Nicki asked trying to get the two men out of the same room.

"I needed to know where you put my dry cleaning."

"In the hall closet and your new shoes are in there as well."

"Thanks." He pecked her lips. Safaree gave him a disgusted look as he watched Damon walked out the room. Nicki noticed.

"Safaree don't start that jealousy crap okay." she said in a hushed tone, not sure of how far Damon had gone.

"I'm not jealous of him, I know what I got." he said in a cocky tone.

"Know? You know what I let you think, okay. Like I said don't get comfortable, that stunt you just pulled was not cute." She looked at him and then walked out pissed off and horny as hell.

Damon's Office

Damon had a lot on his mind lately, he was trying to get his career back on track. If he could do that then he wouldn't have to go through with his plan. He was sitting at his desk in deep thought when Lesley came into his office.

"Boss man here are the papers Mr. Wiseman needs you to sign off on." She sat the papers on his desk in front of him. Then walked to go straighten up his table.

Damon watched her move about the room. He looked at her toned arms and could tell she hit the gym on a regular. He looked at her legs then moved up to her thighs, which weren't visible but could tell she was a thick chick.

"Damon!" he heard her yell and snapped him out of his observation.

"I'm sorry what did you say?" he looked up at her face.

"I said Sign the papers so I can give them back to him. We don't have time to waist, we have three factories down and your name on the line. By the way the guy's in California said their checks never arrived, I assured them that you had sent them off and it was probably the postal service." she said as a statement but was looking for him to confirm what she said.

Damon nodded his head and signed the papers, handing them back.

"I need you to get Keith on the phone and tell him to be ready to explain how this mess happened."

"Yes sir." Lesley left as swiftly as she had came.

Damon sat going over the new numbers when his private line rang, he figured it was Nicki just checking on him since he forgot to text her that he had made it to work. He ignored the call telling himself he would get to her later. Minutes later his iPhone buzzed, alerting him of a text message. He picked it up.

550-403-2012
So your not answering my calls now?

Damon didn't recognize the number.

M.L.
Who is this?

550-403-2012
Just know you have a month to get it together or I'm spilling your secret to the Barbie.

M.L.
I told you I would get what we needed, now stop harassing me about it.

Damon blocked the number because he knew the person wouldn't let him have a moments piece today if he didn't. He knew he had to find away to get what they wanted and fast.

@ the Zoo

Nicki had on her baseball cap with her ponytail pulled through the back. She wasn't decked out in anything crazy today, she sported some jeans, a purple v-neck, a black jacket with her white sneakers. She prayed no one spotted her because she wanted her kids to have a normal outing with their parents without people swarming them. She loved her fans but at times they could be a bit much.

"Mommy can we go see the polar bears and the bird that waddles?" Zaria asked eating her blue snow cone.

Nicki laughed at her request.

"It's called a penguin Zaria." Nicki wiped her daughters mouth. "Sure we can."

"And then can we go see the lions." Daria asked.

"We can go see anything you guys want too. So right now we are going to go see the polar bears." She looked up to see some girl all in Safaree's face. She got mad quickly, this was family day and he was giving his kool-aid smile to some other girl. "Safaree!" she yelled. His head whipped around.

"Who is that, your girl?" The girl nodded towards Nicki.

"No that's my baby mama, we are doing family day. Well it was nice meeting you Ashley, I have to go." Safaree walked away and back to Nicki.

Nicki glared at him and yanked Ethan and Zaria a little harder than she meant too. Safaree looked down at Daria.

"What's her problem?" he asked her, Daria just shrugged her shoulders.

Safaree grabbed her small hand and followed behind Nicki into the polar bear cave. It got dark in the cave until they arrived at the glass case that enclosed the polar bears as they swam underwater. Zaria ran up to the glass and watched the white bears swim around.

"Mommy look at the baby bear."

"I see baby." Nicki smiled seeing the enjoyment in her daughters face.

"Can we buy one?"

"Sure." Safaree answered walking up next to Nicki. She turned and glared at him once again.

"Really?" Zaria turned to him with wide eyes.

"No!" Nicki said. "They are too dangerous Zee."

"Mines won't be I promise." She put on her best pout face.

"No baby girl I was just joking. Besides mommy can't afford a polar bear."

"Mommy can buy anything, she will just put it on her card." Daria stated, looking at her dad like he was crazy.

Both Safaree and Nicki busted out laughing at her comment and her expression.

"Yo she looked at you like you had two heads." Nicki giggled. "Don't ever come for the kid." she punched him.

"What I tell you about hitting me?" he grabbed her wrist playfully.

"Get off me, go touch on your little friend back there."

"You jealous?"

"No." she walked away.

"Yes you are." he said under his breath and followed her and the kids out of the cave.

It was beginning to get chilly out side so she mad the kids put on there jackets. Than ran to go look at the penguins. Safaree walked up to her and grabbed her hand, she panicked and jerked her hand away quickly. She looked around to make sure no one seen.

"Calm down there is hardly anyone here besides old people." He grabbed her hand again. "So what's up with you and Damon? Is he still pulling the disappearing act on you?"

Nicki rolled her eyes.

"Why do you care? That does not affect you, I'm giving you what you want."

"And what is it you think I want?"

They stared at each other.

"All you want from me is--"

"Mommy it's time to go see the lions." Daria said cutting Nicki off and pulling at her other hand.

"Okay baby let's go." She dropped Safaree's hand. "Ethan you and Zaria grab daddies hand."

"I'm a big boy, I don't need to hold his hand."

"Boy if you don't grab his hand." Nicki gave him the look and he booked it over to Safaree.

"How you gone let her punk you playboy?" Safaree laughed. "Don't worry she still gets me at time with that face.

"Daddy I want to go to the petting zoo." Ethan said.

Safaree was always amazed at Ethan and his choices. He was such a gentle child when it came to everything. Safaree wrestled with Daria more than Ethan. But he didn't mind his sons gentle soul, he knew too many dudes from his old neighborhood that got caught up in the streets trying to be hard. If his son wanted to pet a baby goat then that's what he would take him to do.

"You got it coon."

--

Safaree was driving back to his house from the zoo. He was trying to figure out what Nicki was texting about that had her giggling and smiling. When he asked her on the way to the car she just smirked at him and continued her text message. Safaree had the feeling she was texting Damon and that had him agitated.

"What are you--"

"Mommy can we go to the Sugar Factory?" Zaria cut Safaree off before he could get his question out.

"Sure Z-Bear." She answered not looking up from her phone.

Safaree shook his head  and pulled into the parking lot of the Sugar Factory. He didn't see how she got mad at him for talking to someone but she has all her attention on her phone during "Family Time". He stop the car with a jerk sending her phone flying to the ground.

Nicki put her hand out to stop fro hitting her head on the dashboard. The kids were fine because they were in there seats strapped in. Nicki once again glared at him. Safaree smiled.

"Sorry." he got out the car and  began unstrapping Ethan.

Nicki got out and slammed his door shut,, she helped him get the other two out and they entered the store. The kids knew the routine, they had 20 minutes to go down each aisle and fill as many bags as they could with what ever candy they wanted. The Sugar Factory was an actual factory full of assorted candies, the kids never made it through all the aisles. They grabbed a couple of bags.

"1,2,3...go!" Safaree yelled and the kids darted different ways.

There were workers all over so they would have help. Nicki grabbed a bag and strolled down one of the aisle glancing over the candy. Safaree walked up beside her.

"So you mad at me?"

"I sure am not." She grabbed some gummy worms, putting one in her mouth.

"Yes you are." he bumped her slightly.

"No I'm not Safaree, now gone."

"I'm just trying to figure out why." he stated ignoring her. "You started acting funky right before we went to the polar bears at the zoo." he scratched his head then snapped his fingers. "That's it, you're jealous."

Nicki's jaw dropped.

"Jealous of what?"

"Of the girl I was talking to."

"Boy please nobody is jealous of some ratchet hoe named Ashley."

She looked around checking to see where the triplets were. Ethan was hand in hand with a white girl that worked at the store. Nicki laughed because she could see her son had a thing for white girls, not that she mind as long as the girl treated her baby well she didn't care who he ended up with.

"Oh so you remember her name?" Safaree found this funny because he didn't.

"Listen all I know is if you decide to start bedding other girls please let me know because that will be the end of our little arrangement." She walked to the back of the store with Safaree on her heels.

There wasn't anyone around in the section they were in. Safaree turned Nicki around and held her by waist.

"Are you still having sex with him?" Safaree questioned.

Nicki looked away.

"Answer my question Nicki. Are you still fucking Damon?"

"What business of it is yours?"

"You will always be my business Onika, now answer the question." he tightened his grip on her waist.

"No Safaree. I don't have sex with him anymore." she said in a hush tone.

"Are you lying to me?" they locked eyes.

"I don't have to lie to you, if I was sexing him I would tell you because I would want the same courtesy."

Safaree pecked her lips and let her go.

"Mommy is this to much?" Zaria came up to them with five bags full of candy.

"No it's not to much but you're done. Let's go up to the register and wait for your brother and sister to finish up." She looked up to Safaree. "Are we done here?"

"Are you still mad?" he asked.

"I was never mad, she didn't have a thing on  me." Nicki walked away with all the confidence in the world.

Safaree's House

After the Sugar factory Safaree stopped by the story to get groceries for his house. He was going to cook dinner for the kids and Nicki. He had the macaroni & cheese and barbecue baked chicken in the oven and the greens soaking in the sink waiting to be picked.

"Nic." Safaree whispered her name while she was bent over putting the grapes in the fruit drawer of the fridge. She flipped her hair and stared back at him.

"What? And why are we whispering?" she stood up.

Safaree nodded for her to come to him; she placed the bag of oranges on the counter and walked up in front of him.

"What?" She asked again.

Safaree encircled her waist and began kissing her on her lips. She wrapped her arms around his neck and to engage in a more passionate kiss. Safaree gripped her ass making her more excited. He heard the kids running around upstairs and broke the kiss.

"Come on." he lead her around the corner and to the back of the house where the laundry room was. He pulled her in and closed the door pinning her to it.

"You can't take to long okay." Nicki her hands over his chest.

"Shh." he he ran his tongue over her bottom lip before kissing her fully again.

"I'm serious Safaree." she said in between kisses.

Safaree ripped her blouse open exposing her leopard bra. He kissed the side of her neck trailing down to her full breast. He picked her up and put her on the washing machine that was currently on the spin cycle. Safaree watched her breast shake back and forth before eventually removing the bra.

"Safaree hurry."

"I'm not rushing this so chill. The kids will be fine." he never looked up at her, just continued to fondle her breast. He teased her nipples with his thumb and index finger making her inhale deeply. He kissed her collar bone listening to her pant.

"Safaree stop playing."  she went for his belt buckle but he knocked her hand away.

"You'll get that when I'm ready for you to have it." Safaree rolled her skirt up over her hips and leaned her back.

Nicki new what time it was and was ready to take all he was about to give. After removing her undies he began to orally please her. She rocked her hips to the rhythm of his tongue.

"Right there." she mumbled. She knew he was able to get her to her climax within minutes, so she didn't understand why it hadn't happened yet, she should be working on number two. Nicki looked down at him to find him staring back. "What are you doing down there? Stop playing games."

"Why didn't you say you wanted that?" he smirked.

Nicki clamped her legs around his head trapping him with his face buried in her sweet spot. He pried her legs open.

"Stop playing." he bit her thigh.

"Safaree no! That's going to leave a mark, what am I supposed to tell Damon?" He shrugged his shoulders and went back to eating.

--

Nicki walked into her house with the kids moving at a snail pace behind her. Her and Safaree tired them out at his house after they tired out in the laundry room or until Ethan came and knocked on the door looking for his Tarzan movie.

"Come on slow pokes up to bed, you can take your baths in the morning."

"Mommy can I have some water?" Zaria asked.

"Yes I'll bring you some up, go put on your pajamas."

Nicki went and checked her messages in the kitchen and sort through her mail that Damon left on the counter. Nothing important but she did have a envelope addressed to her that didn't look business related. Damon came into the kitchen and looked at her funny so she gave him a funky face back while listening to the last message. She deleted the message from her mom asking her to call and check on her little brother.

"What you looking at?"

"Who's clothes are  you wearing?"

Nicki looked down and saw that she was wearing Safarees sweats and shirt. She couldn't wear her shirt because he had ripped the buttons off of it so she grabbed one of his clean shirts out of the dryer along with his sweats.

"Oh I spilled juice all over my outfit at Safarees house, so I stole some of his clothes." She went and grabbed a cup to give Zaria her water.

"Oh oh okay. So did you think anymore on that proposal.?"

Nicki sighed and put the water back into the fridge then turned around to look at him.

"Babe I told you give me a minute, I've been with my family all day. Besides I'm going to need you to actually put a portfolio together before I agree to do anything." Nicki walked out the kitchen to go tend to the children.

"Damn." he said under his breath. He had to think of a different approach, he couldn't let his secrete go public.

*Not to much. I hope I still have your interest with the story. 20-30 comments before the next chapter. To new readers NEVER speak about my story on the TL. DMs or on here ONLY please. Until next time, smooches.*