Home is Where the Heart Is...

*Sorry for the wait*

Waking up to an empty bed is not what Nicki was used to and she was growing irritated with it. Day 60 had just hit marking two months Nicki had been without her loved ones. Being in China had been a great experience for her. Nicki had learned to take time out and meditate again, to just let her mind go blank for ten or 15 minutes. Thinning about her babies she didn't mind not having those 15 minutes, they made her life enjoyable with all their questions and curiosity.

Today they were wrapping up the shot they were supposed to do in L.A. The director Steven had found a spot last minute in Beijing to shoot it in so there went Safaree and Nicki's time together. She could hear the disappointment in his voice when she broke the news to Safaree. He was not only disappointed because he wouldn't see Nicki but he had brought the kids along to L.A. as a surprise for her and he had to break it to them that she wasn't coming after all.

Nicki sat in the small cafe as the production team worked around her. It was raining outside which matched Nicki's mood, gloomy. She stared out the window sipping her grapefruit hot tea. She was waiting on the crew to finish setting up for the scene. Across the cafe Steven and Mai watched her.

"Nicki's been miserable for the past week. She isn't the same Onika she was when she arrived." Steven said defeated. He had tried everything to get Nicki in a upbeat mood. "It's beginning to show on camera."

"Nicki is thousands of miles away from her family. She doesn't know anyone here. This is her make or break film, it's going to or at least Nicki wants this to show her as a serious actress." Mai looked back over at Nicki who was now speaking to Trevor. "She has a lot riding on this."

"I have a lot riding on this as well Mai." Steven took a drag of his cigarette.

"Steven you know Nicki is the only one who can pull this role off. She is doing an amazing job."

"I need phenomenal. When I chose her I had no doubts, now-" he puffed on his dwindling cigarette, "I'm not so sure." Steven put out his cigarette. "Talk to her before I talk to her."

"Go away." Mai waved him off irritated by his presence. Mai watched Steven walk past Nicki and them share a quick stare then he disappeared out the door.

Mai picked up her phone and hit eight on her speed dial.

"How's everything going?" She moved to the back corner for privacy.

"I'll be there sometime tomorrow morning. Are you sure about this?"

"Trust me everything will go smoothly." Mai assured.

"If it doesn't you will feel her wrath, I'm not going down for this by myself."

"Just be there on time." Mai hung up the phone. "I hope this goes smoothly." Walking over to Nicki she plastered a smile on her face.

"Hey Mai." Nicki greeted.

"How are you doing?" Mai took a seat.

"I've been better." Nicki finished off the last of her tea.

"Actors on set." Steven shouted ending the brief conversation between the pair. Nicki stood putting on her form fitting black leather jacket.

Nina

It was Thursday evening and Nina was preparing to have a girls night out which was way over do. She was hopping out the shower when Quintin walked in from work. Nina walked in the room and rolled her eyes at him still mad from their argument this morning before he left. Sitting on the bed she began to lotion up, Quintin stooped in front of her.

"You still mad at me baby?" he asked.

"Move Q." she didn't look at him.

"Come on don't be mad." he placed his hand on her knee which she quickly brushed off and rubbed it with lotion. "Let me do this for you." he grabbed the lotion.

"No thank you." She snatched the bottle of Jergens back.

"Why are you being like this? I told you I was sorry for forgetting to pick up the packages."

"That's the problem you are always forgetting to do things I ask of you and expecting me to be okay with it but let me forget and I receive a whole lecture and a half on being responsible. I'm sick of you treating me like a child when you are only a few years older than me." Nina stormed over to her dresser searching for underwear to put on.

Quentin made his way over to her and wrapped his arms around her tightly kissing and nibbling on her shoulder.

"I'm sorry baby, I'll do better. Not with just the forgetting part but also how i talk to you. I know you're not a child and I don't want you to feel as your one. I love you." he looked at her in the mirror, she was chewing on her lip. "Nina Bina please forgive me." he gave his best pout face making her laugh.

"Okay okay. I forgive you." she said.

"There goes that smile I love." he kissed her neck then tugged at her towel making it fall. "Oops I'm sorry." he grabbed her by the waist turning her around and kissing her lips.

"No Q, I have to be at Michelle's at seven."

"Why leave when you can stay right here and let me make up with you. You've been mad all day so you should let me apologize all night." He picked her up sitting her on the dresser. "I promise you'll have more fun with me." he got on his knees eye level with her pussy. "See I can play all night right here." He inserted his middle finger inside her.

"Quentin." She moaned.

"Huh?"

"I gotta g- go." she was trying to sound like she meant it as he sucked on her pearl.

"Mmmm yes." is all she could get out.

"Yes what? Yes you have to go or yes don't stop?"

"I really have to go." he stopped and looked at her with a "What the fuck" expression. "I'm sorry baby but we made these plans at the beginning of the week. I love you." he got up and took her off the dresser.

"I love you too. Where are y'all going?" he asked removing his clothes for his shower.

"Club Zest."

"You know the rules, If you put your drink down and walk away for even a minute it is no longer your drink. If you feel like neither of you can drive call me Nina."

"I will." she said sliding on her leggings. She would get dressed over Michelle's.

"I'm serious Nina."

"I hear you Quentin." she was becoming irritated again.

"I'm just looking out for you."

"I know but I gotta go. Text you when i get to the club." She kissed him on the lips then left.

10:30 @ Michelle's

Both Nina and Michelle were a bit tipsy already. Nina had just finished up her make up while Michelle was putting on her dress. Both still sipping on Ciroc and Pineapple juice.

"So I'm going to find you a man tonight." Nina said walking over to her dress.

"What? Girl I am not looking for a man. I don't have the time nor the energy. Besides I told you my Ex lives in New York and the only reason we broke up was because i had to move away. But now that I'm going back we could possibly rekindle what we had."

"I guess. I still say you should get you some Miami ding-a-ling before you leave. Come zip me up."

"You are a mess. I'm going to miss you when I leave."

"We'll see each other. I'm there all the time visiting my brother Safaree and his kids. I have to introduce you to Nicki, you two will love each other."

"You think?" Michelle gave her a weird look.

"Yes, everyone loves Nicki. If you don't get along with her it's something wrong with you." Nina said. Michelle rolled her eyes.

"Let's just go before you really get all up Ms. Nicki's ass." Michelle grabbed her purse and walked out the room. Nina looked confused but shook it off.

"Shots before we leave." Michelle called out.

"I think we should stop until we get to the club." Nina came walking down the stairs.

"Don't be a little punk bitch Nina. Take the damn shot." Michelle held it out to her. Nina hesitantly took the shot from her hand and threw it to the back of her throat. "Good girl." Nina winced at the ice cold liquid burning her throat as it went down. "Now let's go before the line gets long. You drive."

Nina knew she was in no condition to drive but neither was Michelle. She figured if anyone was going to wreck her car she'd rather it be her. She didn't want to hear Quincy's mouth about it but she knew he would really go at Michelle if she wrecked it. He never really took a liking to her

China

Friday Morning Nicki woke up to what sounded like whispers. She chalked it up to her still being sleepy so she nuzzled back down further into her bed. She had today off so she would take every free second she had to relax and forget about the troubles in her life.

"What are we going to do now?" a small voice asked.

"Ion know. This was your big plan." She said

Nicki's eyes popped open and she sat straight up in the bed. The heads ducked down at the foot of the bed. Nicki hopped to her knee's.

"Who's there?" she shouted but there was no movement. "Show yourself right now of i will kick your ass."

"Mommy that's not nice." Zaria little body popped up with her hands on her hips. Ethan and Daria appeared slowly. Nicki screwed her face up at the sight.

This can't be real, she thought as she sunk to her knees. "Are you guys really here?" tears threatened to spill over.

"Yes mommy." Ethan crawled on to the bed and sat. "You're crying, you not happy to see us mommy?" he sat confused.

"No mommy is really happy baby." she pulled him close hugging him tight. "Come here you two." the girls went and hugged their mother. Nicki planted kisses all over them. Next thing she saw was a flash. She looked up to see Safaree with a camera.

"I thought I told you three to stay downstairs?"

"Sorry Daddy." They said laying against Nicki.

"Safaree." her voice just above a whisper.

"Surprise baby." he smiled big. Nicki got off the bed and jumped into his arms wrapping her legs around him. "Shhh don't cry Nicki."

"Thank you for coming." she pulled back kissing him deeply on his lips until they hears a bunch of vomiting noises. They turned and looked at the kids acting as if they were so sick from the sight. "I missed you guys." she hugged Safaree again. "When did you get here?"

"About an hour ago. These three were supposed to be helping me make you breakfast but i ended up doing all the labor." He sat down on the bed with Nicki still securely wrapped around him.

"I was gonna but Ethan said to come wake up mommy." Zaria said.

"No." Ethan shook his head. "Did not mommy."

"Can we go eat?" Zaria asked.

"In a minute, mommy wants to just hold you guys for awhile." Nicki gathered them up and laid with them in bed. Safaree kept snapping pictures as they talked. Nicki was in a earthly heaven, all her babies were with her. She didn't have to worry about what they were doing and if they were safe.

Safaree noticed in the middle of their conversation Nicki had dozed off along with the kids. He got up to go eat.

"Daddy I'm hungry." He looked back at a heavy eyed Zaria.

"Come on baby." Safaree held out his hand. Zaria crawled to to the edge then slid off. Safaree noticed how tall she was getting. "You should play basketball Z-Bear."

"I wanna be a Chef."

"I can see that happening." they walked down the stairs talking about what foods she wants to learn to cook leaving the other three to their slumber.

Later

Siting outside in the floating bed hammock the five of them sat playing go fish. Nicki was losing and wasn't a happy camper about it either.

"Got five and a possible over there?"

"Shut up Safaree." Nicki yelled hitting him. Safaree just laughed.

"You are getting beat by five year olds and it's not even a strategic game."

"I quit." Nicki threw her cards in. "Let's play something else."

"Like what?" Ethan asked.

"How about we go sight seeing? It's our first time in China, let's not stay cooped up all day." Safaree suggested.

"Okay. I can take you to the local market."

"Why every time we go somewhere new you find the local market?"

"Because I like fresh food. Anymore questions or can we leave?" Nicki said getting up.

"Keep getting smart and I'ma have something fuh you." he looked her up and down licking his lips. She had on a mid drift top showing her abs and some black leggings.

"Put ya tongue back in your mouth nasty." she opened the door and let the kids in the house. Safaree grabbed her by her waist and whispered in her ear.

"I'll remember you said that when you want some loving." he kissed her behind her ear. She just grinned and kept walking.

"We are walking to the market, it's only 10 minutes away so put on some sneakers everyone. You did pack them some didn't you Safaree?"

"Yes I packed some." The kids cam running around the corner with there shoes on.

"Z-Bear they have really good food at the market." Nicki said opening the front door.

"Do I get to try it?" Zaria asked smiling.

"Of course. Now it's different from what we eat at home but if you are going to be a chef like daddy told me you want to be you have to be open to try new food okay?"

"Yes ma'am."

"I'm ready." Safaree came jogging down the stairs.

Once at the market they began shopping for food to cook that night. Daria and Safaree went to check out some of the stores that sold clothes while Nicki, Ethan, and Zaria gathered the food. Nicki was going to try and make sushi for dinner, she wanted to open her kids up to new things.

"Mommy something smells good."

"It does Z." Nicki looked around to see where the smell was coming from. She spotted an elderly man wrapping something. "This way." the made they're way to him.

"What a cooking?" Zaria asked.

"Black beans and avocado, wrapped in lettuce." the man said in a heavy Asian accent.

"You want it?" Nicki looked at the beans cautiously. Yeah they smelled good but looked gross.

"Yes."

"Ethan?" Nicki looked at him and his face was just as twisted as hers.

"No thank you."

"One please." Nicki pulled out her money to pay the man then handed Zaria the wrap and waited on the verdict. Zaria bit into the wrap. "Is it good?"

"It's salty but it's good." she said.

"Let me taste it." Nicki took the wrap and bit it. "Mmmm try it Ethan." she put it in his face.

"No." he pushed it away. Safaree walked up with Daria and a couple of bags.

"What's that?" he asked.

"Try it." She put it up to his lips. He took a big bite. "You big doof."

"That's good. Let me get one. Nicki pay the man." He took the wrap from the man while Nicki rolled her eyes.

"Can we go now, I gotta figure out how to make this stuff."

"Aw my baby cooking for me again I've missed that." Safaree said pulling her into a kiss.

"I've missed it too." She smiled as they walked back to the house. She was glad to have her family with her again.

*Hope you liked it. Just a small chapter, but it's better than nothing right? =/ @Me if you want a notification because I don't really know who reads still.*

VISUALS

Nina



The Hammock


The Wrap

Let Your Feelings Show...

It was day 40 into Life without Nicki and Safaree had barely gotten any sleep. The triplets kept him running around constantly. If they weren't in school he was running Zaria to her Dance classes or Daria to her basketball practices. And it didn't help that Nicki called every other hour to check up on them. Safaree just wanted a couple of hours of sleep to re-energize and he'd be fine, and it seemed like he would get his wish.

The doorbell rang and he slowly but surely made his way to the door after making sure the kids were settled in the living room. When he opened the door two grocery bags appeared in his arms and Mama carol made her way into the house. Safaree closed the door and followed behind her and went into the kitchen sitting the bags down. He watched in a daze as she moved swiftly around the house getting it back in the order of which Nicki left it.

"So she told you to come and check up on me?" he asked annoyed.

"What? No, I just know how my grand babies can get and no one can handle these three on their own for two weeks straight." Mama Carol said picking up the scattered toys.

"Wait Nana not that one." Ethan said grabbing his train.

"Ethan you can't play with all six of these at once so put three of them in your toy chest." she instructed. Ethan stared at the trains intently then scratched the side of his face like his father did when making an important decision then picked three and put them away. "When you want to play with another just switch it out okay Ethan?" she rubbed his head.

"Yes Nana."

"Well no offense Mama Carol-"

"I feel like I'll be offended so It's best you just not say it." She looked up into an exhausted Safarees face. she knew he need rest just like Nicki knew before she left he would try to be super dad and do this all by himself. "Safaree I've looked at you like you were my own since you were 14 years old and I do for you as I do for my blood. So take your behind upstairs and don't come down until I tell you too. You do trust me to take care of my grandchildren don't you?"

"Yes ma'am I do I just-"

"Well then that's all that matters so go sleep before I tell Onika and she yells at you and we both know you don't want to hear one of her rants." Mama Carol smiled.

Safaree smirked thinking about how Nicki's nose wrinkled when she got heated. And how her leg bounced uncontrollably.

"Thank you Mama Carol. Sorry for-"

"No need to apologize, I know how you get with lack of sleep." She said straightening the pillows on the couch. Safaree kissed the top of her head and made his way up to his bed.

On Location

Nicki looked around at all the beautiful waterfalls surrounding her. The birds and wildlife around her made her sit in a tranquil state for the first time since she has been in China. She looked at the cast and crew move about while Joyce put the finishing touches on her make-up. Nicki spotted Mai coming toward her.

Mai was the one to let her know what exactly was going to happen in the shot and let her know her blocking. She was such a ball of energy which Nicki loved.

"Hows the Harajuku Barbie on this fine Monday morning?" Nicki laughed.

"Why you keep callin me that?" Nicki rolled her eyes.

"Uh uh don't pull your Queens accent out on me hunny." Nicki busted out in her obnoxious laugh.

"Mai why you so Ratchet? The Barbs would love you." Nicki picked up her phone.

@NICKIMINAJ BARBSSSSSSS..... Mai puts the RATCH in Ratchet. #TisAWL

"We're ready for Nicki." a mans voice came from the walkie on Mai's hip.

"You finished Joyce?" Nicki asked.

"Yes but I don't see why I just beat your face to perfection only for you to ruin it diving into the water?" Joyce said with attitude. Nicki stood. "Hold on let me take a picture so I can twitpic once the movie comes out so they can see what a masterpiece looks like."

"You are so extra Joyce-ann." Nicki smiled and gave face for the camera. Nicki untied her robe and revealed a very revealing bikini. "Take a picture with my phone." Again Nicki struck a sexy pose with her hands in her hair and showed off her very toned thighs.

"Who are you trying to look sexy for." Nicki just smiled and sent the picture to Safaree.

Dat Coon
Wish you were here to peel this off me. ;)

Safaree
I'll let him know once he wakes up. You could find a more appropriate swimsuit baby girl?

Dat Coon
OMG MOM PUT HIS PHONE DOWN.

Nicki was instantly embarrassed, she didn't even wait for a response she just put the phone down and fell in step behind Mai.

When Nicki and Mai reached the top of the mountain she was greeted by her stunt coordinator and the director.

"Hello beautiful." Steven said kissing her hand.

"Such a charmer Steven." Nicki said in her southern bell voice.

"So can you repeat back to me what Mai told you so I know you are completely aware of what's expected in this scene?" Steven asked.

"Sure. I run from those trees over there trying to get away from Randolph and when I see there is no way down but the waterfall I stop causing Randolph to tackle me to the ground. We wrestle around and he throws me over his head onto my back. I hope up Kick, he blocks pushing me into the water, I stand up run to the edge of the waterfall, stop and turn around. "There is nowhere to go but down Liliana, come back with me and I'll forget about the betrayal" then I smirk and ever so elegantly backwards dive off the top of the waterfall and into the water below." Nicki said.

"Perfect mon amour. And you're sure you want to do thee actual dive. Gina is up here if you want her to do it." Steven reassured.

Nicki looked over at her stunt double Gina and smiled.

"No I don't want her stealing my thunder, I wanna say I did all my stunts." Nicki said confidently.

"Alright well let's do this." Steven took her hand and led Nicki into the trees where she was supposed to bust out from.

New York

"Just go do what you need to Safaree, me and the kids are fine here."

Safaree and Mama Carol had been going back and forth all evening. Safaree didn't want to push the kids off on her just be cause she was there but Mama Carol insisted on him going into his study and getting his business plan for his company he wanted to start as close to finished as possible.

"Mama Carol this isn't your responsibility. The kids can come into the office with me and you can go home." He offered.

"You will never be able to get any work done with Zaria in there and her 101 questions. Zaria looked up from the picture she was drawing wondering how she got pulled into the conversation. "I'm starting to believe you don't want my company?" She crossed her arms.

Safaree sighed and shook his head. He now seen where Nicki got all her head games from.

"You don't play fair. Two hours tops then I'm coming to make dinner." Safaree turned and walked off.

"If you say so." mama Carol went back into the theater and got comfy next to the kids on their pallet on the floor. "So what movie is this you three?"

"The Fox and the Hound." they all said not breaking concentration from the screen.

"Your mommy used to love this movie."

"Really?" Ethan said looking at Mama Carol.

"Yes. She said it was one of the greatest test of friendship." Ethan crawled in her lap no longer having interest in the movie.

"I miss her." Ethan said laying his head on her chest.

"I know you do baby but she'll be back in no time. She's gotta work so she can keep buying all those trains you like. She would never leave you for forever sweetie." Mama Carol said kissing his forehead.

"Promise?"

"Has Nana ever lied to her baby?"

"No Nana, never." He said kissing her cheek. "Nana you have holes like mommy." he poked her dimple.

"I gave your mother those holes people love so much."

"Me and Daria have holes on our butts." Zaria chimed in causing Ethan to laugh.

"You have extra holes in your butts." He teased.

"Shut up Ethan." Daria yelled. Ethan rolled around on the floor laughing. Daria got up and began pushing his head into the floor.

"I said shut up." She yelled again.

"Get off me Daria." He pushed back now serious.

"Hey you two stop." Mama Carol said seeing this was getting serious. She picked Daria up off of Ethan. "Daria calm down, what's gotten into you? You don't hit your family."

"But he-"

"No buts Toot. And Ethan you know you don't hit girls."

"But it's Daria she's not a girl she's a poo poo head." He broke out in laughter again. Daria went after him again.

"You to remind me of your mother and Uncle Jay." She rolled her eyes. "Well come on Zaria I guess you can lick the spoon after I finish mixing the cake batter." Mama Carol said catching Daria and Ethan's attention.

"Yay." Zaria hopped up and ran up the stairs to the kitchen.

"No, we're sorry Nana." Ethan said. He loved cooking with the grown ups.

"Yeah we're sorry." Daria gut checked Ethan with her elbow one last time.

"Come on so we can cook your daddy dinner." she took both of them by the hand.

Four Hours Later

A light knock raked across Safaree's office door pulling him from number crunching. Mama Carol popped her head into the office. Safaree looked at the time it read 10pm. He rubbed his eyes and caught the scent of lasagna.

"In here working hard or hardly working?" She placed the plate in front of him.

"Working hard." he picked up the fork and dug in. Mama Carol popped his hand causing him to drop the fork from his mouth.

"Say your grace first." She waited for him to say it then spoke. "You know my lasagna taste better fresh out the oven not microwaved."

"I know I'm sorry. I lost track of time. Are the kids sleep yet?"

"Hours ago. And everything is cleaned up."

"Thank you for today Mama C, I needed this break."

"I know you did. So how are you doing?" She asked sitting across from him. They locked eyes and Safaree knew a generic "I'm good" was not going to cut it.

"I miss her but I'm making it." he leaned back in the chair."

"You're talking as if she died Safaree. She'll be back here in no time."

"I know but we haven't been without each other this long ever. Not even when we broke up five years ago. When you're are used to seeing a person almost everyday, when it changes it's hard to get used to. And on top of that mama Carol we just got back together not to long ago, what if during this time she decides she can live without me? I don't know if I can handle that." They sat in silence. Safaree couldn't believe that he had just laid his feelings out like that in front of the mother of the woman he loved. It was something about the Maraj women that just made people feel safe and open he thought.

"The way your feeling I'm sure she's feeling too. The next time it's just you to on that video thing y'all talk to each other on tell her how you really feel."

"Yes ma'am."

"Well I'm headed to my room. Breakfast at 7am, don't be late." she closed the door behind her.

Safaree knew Nicki wouldn't be calling tonight so he headed upstairs. Walking past the table in the hallway he picked up his phone. He scrolled through his missed calls and and seen he had text messages from Nicki. He'd check them after his shower.

Thursday in Shanghai

Nicki was having lunch with the cast and crew. She really wasn't having as much as everyone else. She was feeling guilty for not calling the kids and Safaree before they went to sleep. She knew they were fine because her mom was there but she wanted to hear their voices for herself. She really wanted to speak with Daria. Every time they Skyped or Nicki tried to talk to her on the phone Daria was short with her.

"So Nicki how are you liking it over here so far?" Trever the sound guy asked. Everyone addressed the China natives by an American name for the American actors. Nicki tried to learn their names but it was just no way she was going to get the pronunciation of Ming-húa.

"I'm enjoying it a lot. The people here are so nice and polite." Nicki said forcing a fake smile.

"Have you seen any of your Barbs while you've been out and about?" Mai asked.

"Yes. They make this feel like back in the states. They always make me happy." Nicki gave a genuine smile this time.

"You miss your family." Mai said to her as everyone else went back to their side conversations.

"Is it that obvious?" Nicki asked looking defeated.

"It's expected. You have three small children and I'm guessing this is the first time you have been away from them this long since they've been born."

"Yes, it is. I feel like a horrible mother for leaving them." Mai shook her head.

"You are doing this for them, so they can have the very best out of life. Don't think that way Nicki." Mai said with a concerned look on her face. Nicki smiled at her genuine concern.

"You remind me of Safaree."

"Oh that's your fella back home?" Mai asked wiggling her eyebrows.

"Yes." Nicki blushed a bit. "I miss him too and I didn't get to call him tonight and this is the third day i haven't. I promised him and my kids I would call every night."

"Well go home now and call him."

"It's two in the morning over there."

"So, he your man. He's supposed to wake up for you." Nicki laughed at the sudden grammatical error in Mai's speech.

"But I don't want to be rude." Mai threw her hands up.

"They're men. if you're waiting on them to leave you'll be waiting all night. They are going to sit here and drink all night. No one will mind if you leave early just remember your driver will be at your house at 9pm to pick you up for the highway scene."

"Alright. Will you be there tonight?" Nicki asked looking through her wallet for cash.

"Don't worry Steven will pay and yes I'll be there. Tell your boyfriend I said hi." Mai nudge Nicki away.

"Goodbye everyone." They all said their goodbyes and she was off.

Two Hours Later

Dat Coon
I need to see your face

Safaree
It's 4am babe...

Dat Coon
Pweaseeeee :(

Safaree
Okay give me a minute

Nicki smiled and looked in the mirror at herself. She didn't want it to look like she had just showered and put on make-up and a cute top to make her boobs look good. Which she actually did just do. Nicki heard the familiar ring of Skype and hurried over to her bed. She answered and it took a second for him to pop up on her screen.

"Hi babe." She grinned big into the camera.

"Hey baby." Safaree replied as up beat as he possibly could at 4am. Nicki noticed his eyes were still closed.

"Babe wake up, I miss you." she tapped the screen like he could actually feel it.

"I am up Nic." Safaree rubbed his eyes and peeked at the screen, raising his eyebrow at the sight of Nicki. "You look pretty." Nicki smiled even bigger.

"I do? I just got in from the set, I probably look a hot mess." she said downplaying her image.

"If that's what you look like from a long morning of working I'm one lucky coon."

"I'm glad you realized it." she giggled.

"I miss that." he said.

"Miss what?" she laid down propping her head in her hand.

"Your cockiness and the giggle that always follows after. I miss you baby." he confessed.

"I miss you more than you'll ever know Safaree. It's lonely being out here all by myself. Yeah I have Terrence and Joyce but they're not enough. I need you and my kids." Nicki stopped herself so she wouldn't cry.

"You'll see us soon Nicki. Please don't cry." he was torn. He was supposed to be able to comfort her and he couldn't.

"I'm not."

"Is that a new bra?" he asked trying to get her mind on something else. Nicki looked down.

"yes, i bought it the other day. You like?" She pushed her boobs together.

"Let me find out you got somebody out there to be buying new bras for." Nicki laughed.

"No, I got them for you."

"Better have."

"I did. You want a better view?" She asked in a sexy tone.

"Yeah." he replied. Nicki jumped to her knees and slowly pulled the thin t-shirt over head. Safaree sucked in air and adjusted his pajama pants.

"I'm sorry." Nicki said.

"for what Nic?"

"For leaving and not making love to you. That's the one thing you asked of me and I didn't fulfill it."

"Don't worry about that. I love that bra though." he smiled and licked his lips.

"I thought you would." Safaree yawned.

"Babe me and the kids have a full day tomorrow I gotta get some sleep."

"Okay but leave the camera on, I want to watch you sleep." Nicki said getting comfy in her bed.

"Okay, I love you."

"I love you too. Muah. Give me a kiss back." she said.

"Muah." Safaree got comfortable in the bed and was sleep within minutes.

Nicki sat there and watched him for awhile then felt like a creeper so she ended the call.

@NICKIMINAJ I miss my babies.... Barbs I Love you.

Nicki dropped her phone in her purse and picked up her Kindle. When she opened the case a picture fell out. She picked it up and seen it was her and Ethan. She thought back to when he was three.

"I'm going to have to reevaluate somethings." Nicki said to herself.

"Mommy what does re...ree..what did you say" Ethan asked  tilting his head, and scrunching up his face.

"Reevaluate Ethan." Nicki said going over the final plans for the families trip to her homeland of Trinidad.

"What does reebaluate mean?" he looked at her intently.

"To think about something again." she stared of into space.

"Oh." he went back to playing on the floor in Nickis study. Nicki looked at her son and marveled at how inquisitive he was becoming.

LATER

Nicki was in the studio downstairs in her home writing a verse but she couldn't quite get it to sound right. Ethan was on the floor playing with a train.

"Ugh." she crumpled up the paper and pushed the button on the remote to start the track again.

"What's wrong mommy?" He was standing barefoot on the leather couch leaning on the back of it with his head propped up in his hand eating an apple.

 "I can't get this verse right." she looked toward the booth going over what she had in her head to the beat.

"Well maybe you should reebaluate it." he took a bite of his apple and innocently stared at her. She looked over at him and smiled.

"Yeah maybe I should." she pulled him to her tickling him. "Gimme some of your apple."

"Say pwease mommy."

"Oh excuse me, can I pwease have some of your apple?"

"You can do a lot mommy." he giggled. She dropped her jaw at him using her own sayings against her.

"Keep your stank apple." she pushed him off her onto the couch. "I'll just go make a apple pie and eat it all by myself." she got up walking out of the studio. She heard a soft thump then the sound of small feet running.

"I want some apple pie. You gonna make it like grandma?" She knew that was his favorite dessert. Ethan pulled at her pants leg, she looked down at him handing her the apple core.

"So when I ask for a piece of the apple you get all smart but when you're done you offer up the waste? Give it here." she took it from him.

"Love you mommy." he looked at her with his pretty browns.

"Don't try and sweet talk me." he laughed and took off up the stairs to the main floor. "Love that kid."


The doorbell rang pulling Nicki from her day dream. Nicki looked at the time. It was 8:45. She grabbed her purse and went to the door. She was escorted to the car by her small Asian driver Paco. They puled off.

@NICKIMINAJ Can Y'all say Guns and Bad Bitches?

*Well what did you think? And for the record there has NEVER been a female in my story named Michelle, get it together people. So where do you think I'm going with this story? Hmmmmmm...lol Bye.*

VISUALS

Nicki's Bikini

The waterfall she jumped from is the bottom to your left.

Mai :)