The sun was shining through the big bay windows of suite 1814 of Trump Towers, but it wasn't bothering the couple occupying it. Both laid there just staring at the other in the eyes. They were connected, not in the physical sense, neither were touching the other but spiritually they were connected at the moment. The way he felt was the way she felt. Both hearts felt the same joy and pain. The two spoke with their eyes, telling what the mouth wanted but wouldn't dare.
He made contact by moving a strand of hair out of her face that was blocking his great view of her. She kissed his palm before he moved it back by his side, never once breaking eye contact.
"You're doing it again." Safaree said. Nicki adjusted in the bed they were sharing.
"What do you mean?"
"You've locked me into staring at you like we used to do." Nicki smiled.
"I'm sorry." She said still staring at him."
"You know we have to call and check on our kids."
"I know but a little longer. I don't want to hear moms mouth just yet."
"Will you be mad if i break our moment, we need to eat."
"Nooo, we can last a little longer."
"Nicki your stomach has been making noises for the past hour."
"You heard that?"
"Yeah. Let me order us some food and you go take a shower."
"Am I funky?" She raised her arm high. Safaree leaned over and sniffed.
"You've smelled better." he wrinkled his nose. She hit his chest.
"Hey, you love my funk." Nicki drew her bottom lip into her mouth smiling at him.
"Yeah I do." Safaree leaned over and pulled her into a kiss. "Go wash yo ass." He popped her on her butt and rolled out of the bed.
Nicki stretched out in the bed., still in the sweats she wore out of the church the day before. She sat up and watched Safaree move about in the front area of the suite. The urge to pee hit her so she jumped up and went into the bathroom. After releasing her bladder she washed her hands and began brushing her teeth. Still brushing she went and turned on the shower, adjusting the temperature to just below "hot as hell". Going back to the sink she rinsed her mouth out then disrobed, her thoughts went to Damon.
Safaree was out in the living room setting the small table for the food when it arrived. He went to change the sheets, he had housekeeping bring up extra sheets the night before so they wouldn't be disturbed. After tidying up the suite Safaree got undressed and decided to hop in the shower but noticed Nicki still hadn't finished up. He walked in the bathroom being hit with a cloud of steam. When he made his way to the glass shower he seen Nicki vigorously rubbing at her skin with her towel. He could here her cries. Safaree opened the shower door and watched her for a second. He reached for her but she pushed him and kept scrubbing at her skin.
"Nicki what are you doing?"
"I can still smell him on me. Make it go away, please." She said through tears. "I can't get it to go away, baby make it go away." She pushed the towel into his hands. He stood for a second trying to process what was going on. "Safaree please." She begged. He began rubbing her body with the cloth. "Harder." he scrubbed a little harder. She poured more of Safaree's body wash on the towel, that was all she had to use.
"Nicki everything is going to be okay." Safaree reassured her. He didn't want to keep going at her skin the way he was. Her skin was sensitive and she would be red all over if he kept this up. "He's gone you don't have to see him ever again." Safaree held on to her letting her know she wasn't alone, she latched on to his body.
"Don't ever leave me, please? I'll do better than last time, just please don't go." She looked up at him with the water still pouring over her head mixing in with her tears.
"I'll never leave you again. I mean that."
The Next Day
Safaree had finally convinced Nicki to go home after much back and forth. They were currently sitting in the car in front of the house. Nicki was scrolling through her phone. Every time Safaree suggested they get out she would say "One minute", they were on the 12th minute. Safaree was getting agitated because he wanted to see his kids and she was playing around. Safaree opened the door and Nicki's hand flew to his arm.
"Where are you going?" She asked.
"In the house, this is dumb. I want to see my kids."
"And you think I don't?" She let go of his arm.
"Well come on baby there is nothing to be afraid of in there. Everyone is excited to see you." He said stroking her cheek.
"How are they excited if they don't know I'm coming?" She squinted her eyes at him.
"Maybe I might have sent out a txt saying you were coming home." Nicki rolled her eyes. "But baby everyone was so worried and blowing me up asking when you were gonna come home. I had to tell them."
"It's okay babe let's go in, I wanna see my babies." she put her phone in her purse.
They got out the car and headed towards the door. Safaree took her keys and unlocked it letting her step inside first.
When Nicki walked in she heard a lot of commotion coming from the kitchen and living room area. The house looked in decent shape. All her wedding gifts were siting in front of the closet and most of the front entrance. She instantly got sad until she heard Zaria screaming her name and running towards her. Nicki dropped her purse and fell to her knees holding out her arms for an hug.
"Mommy I missed you." Zaria screamed and ran into her mothers arms.
"Not as much as I missed you baby." Nicki planted kisses all over her face.
"Mommy can I have a snack?" Zaria asked. Nicki chuckled at her daughter, she missed these moments.
"Yes baby, you can have a snack."
"So you don't love your daddy no more?" Safaree said looking hurt.
Before Zaria could answer there was a loud crash and a scream. Daria's soccer ball came rolling to a complete stop in front of Nicki. Daria rounded the corner smiling and stopped when she seen Nicki. Mama Carol came from around the kitchen counter holding her chest. The loud crashing of Nickis China plates had startled her.
"Daria just wait till your mother gets home and I tell her what a rotten child you've been" Mama Carol stood next to Daria and followed her eyes and meet Nicki's. "Nicki." She said just above a whisper.
"Hi mama." Nicki said standing up.
Her mother walked to her wrapping her arms around her tightly, Nicki returned the gesture. Safaree seen it was a mother daughter bonding moment and took the kids into the front room. They held each other for awhile but only seemed like seconds to Mrs. Carol. She had been worried for the past couple of days not knowing where her baby girl was.
"Are you okay?" Mrs. Carol asked holding the side of Nicki's face.
"As okay as possible. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you mama."
"Shh, hush child. It wasn't your fault. Come on into the kitchen and let me cook for you."
"I would love that but I'll wait in the living room, i want to spend time with the kids."
"Alright I'll call you when it's ready." She kissed Nicki's cheek then walked into the kitchen. "Safaree you eating?" She yelled over her shoulder.
"Yes mama." he yelled back.
Nicki walked in and seen Safaree picking up the broken plates while the children were siting on the couch watching him. Nicki picked up Ethan and sat in between the girls.
"Hi mommy." Ethan said resting his head on her chest.
"Hi mommy's baby. Have you been good for Nana?" She kissed the top of his head.
"Yes. You okay mommy?"
"Yes baby, I'm okay."
"Is Nana cooking soup?" Zaria asked.
"I don't know baby."
Zaria got done off the couch and went and sat with Safaree. He had found a basketball game to watch but Zaria picked up the remote and turned it to Nick Jr.
"Um excuse me big head I was watching that." Safaree said as Zaria climbed on his stomach and sat. She leaned down and kissed his cheek and went back to watching TV. "Ain't this about a bit-" Zaria looked at him as if daring him to finish his sentence. "Don't pay not one bill.." Safaree mumbled.
"Mommy" Daria said in a small voice.
"Yes Toot?"
"I'm sorry for breaking your plates." she stood up on the couch walking to Nicki and gave her a kiss.
"It's okay baby.
"I missed you guys." She pulled all three of her children into a hug. Ethan spoke up.
"Mommy can we play the new game uncle T got us for the Kinetic?"
"Sure baby." He jumped up and went to set it up.
"You have to take off your heels, no girl stuff."
"Hey I'm a girl." she whined as she took off her shoes.
"Mommy." he whined looking at her like his father would.
"OK. OK." She smiled.
Nicki stood next to Ethan and listened to him explain how to play the game.
"Safaree come help me in the kitchen." Mrs. Carol Said.
"Yes ma'am." he followed behind her.
He sat on the stool and watched her stir something in a big pot. If his nose served him correctly she was making her seafood gumbo. He watched as she took her time getting everything ready, he knew she needed to talk to him but wouldn't rush her.
His stomach began to growl. He looked up to see if Mrs. Carol had heard it, their eyes met and he got his answer.
"Hungry?" She asked raising an eyebrow.
"Just a little." She smiled sliding him a bowl of sausages she had cut up.
"Don't get greedy, i know how you can eat." Safaree too the bowl and dug in. "So did you to get a chance to talk?" She slid the deveined shrimp into the boiling pot of seasonings.
"Yes ma'am." was all he said before stuffing two more pieces of sausages into his mouth.
"And?" she waited for him to finish chewing. He picked up another piece and she snatched the bowl. "If you don't stop playing with me boy I'll bet you like you're my own."
"Alright geeze. She's scared to say the least."
"Of?"
"Her health for the most part, the effect this will have on the kids, her image. She doesn't know how to spin this. I told her to stop thinking about all that and just worry about our family."
"Our?" Mrs. Carol raised a eyebrow again.
Safaree grinned and looked away.
"Yes our. I won't give up again, so get rid of all that worry. We will be okay, I'm going to take care of my family."
"I'm not worried Safaree. I know you will protect them at all cost. Just don't let her run you, keep a backbone because i know how my daughter can get." She slid him the bowl back. "Now when are you two going to go get tested?"
"I'm calling tomorrow for an appointment. Hopefully we can get in tomorrow or the next day."
Mrs. Carol went to grab the bowl to put the sausages into the pot and was met with basically nothing left.
"Didn't i tell you not to be greedy?"
"I'm a growing boy." he said getting up and kissing her on the cheek and leaving out of the kitchen.
She went and grabbed the other link out of the fridge and cut it up.
"They'll be alright." She said to herself then started humming an old Gladys Knight song.
Later that Day
Nicki and the kids had played games up til her mother called for them to eat dinner. After dinner Safaree got the kids ready for bed, letting Nicki go unwind in her room. She showered then laid across her bed when she heard a knock on her door.
"Come in mom."
"Now how did you know it was me?" her mother entered the room shutting the door behind her.
"You're the only one that knocks around here." She smiled and patted a spot next to her. Mrs. Carol climbed up on the bed and sat her back against the pillows. Nicki laid her head in her mothers lap.
"How you feeling baby?"
"Confused, nervous, scared. I don't know how to handle all this mommy. What do I tell my Barbs that I might have an STD that I can't get rid of?"
"Baby I'm sure you don't have anything to worry about."
"But what if I do?" tears began to fall.
"Then you tell them the best way you figure out. You have the most loyal fans I've ever seen. They won't leave you." She stroked Nicki's hair. "Remember that song you sang on your Second album?"
"Which one mommy?" Nicki tried to think back.
"The one about that dead white woman." Nicki laughed through her tears.
"Marilyn Monroe mom?"
"Yea that one. Remember those lyrics, "If you can't handel me at my worst you can't get my best", baby your fans have been through all your highs and lows. They will stick with you through this as well." She leaned down and kissed her forehead.
"Thank you mommy, i needed that."
"Now that we have that out the way, let's talk about when you are going to tell Damon about you cheating too."
Nicki blew out a big breath.
"I don't know mommy. I don't think I can look at him anytime soon."
"Why? He did the same thing you were doing only with a man."
"But he didn't use protection. At least i had the decency to do that with Safaree and him."
"I know but you still have to tell him. And it's better for you to tell him sooner than later so you can remove him from your life and move on from this."
"I hear you mom, give me a day or two to get my thoughts together and i promise ill talk to him by the weekend."
"Okay. Well I cleaned up downstairs so you don't have to worry about that. Now the kids rooms are all yours."
"Thanks mommy for everything. You didn't have to step in and help with the kids while i was gone but you did. Since they were born you have been going above and beyond what a grandmother should do. I don't want you to think you aren't appreciated." Nicki sat up in the bed and hugged her mother.
"Don't worry about it, I'm always happy to help especially when it has to do with my grand babies. Now I'm going to head home."
"Alright, call me when you get there and give daddy a kiss for me."
"Goodnight and I will." Mrs. Carol got out of the bed and headed out the room as Safaree opened the door.
"See I told you nobody but you knocks." they both laughed leaving Safaree clueless.
"Night mama Carol."
"Goodnight Safaree."
"Do you need me to walk you out?"
"No I'll be okay." She said walking down the stairs.
"I'll be right back Nicki." he said walking behind Mrs. Carol. "Now you know i wasn't going to let you walk out this door by yourself."
"I knew you wouldn't be far behind." She grinned as he helped her with her coat.
He helped her into her car and watched from the door as she pulled off down the street not closing the door on the cold December weather until her tail lights were out of view.
Walking back up the stairs he checked in on the girls sleeping peacefully in their bed. He looked in Ethan's room and seen him sprawled out all over his bed. Safaree made his way to Nicki's room knocking on the frame to get her attention, she was flipping through her Bible. It was a worn out white Bible, he wanted to get her another one but she had had that one since she first got baptized and refused to part with it.
"Come in."
"I was just coming to say goodnight. I'll see you in the morning."
"Where are you going?" She asked.
"I'm going to sleep in the guest room."
"Why? Stay with me." She said.
"Are you sure? I don't want you to rush into anything before you're ready."
"Safaree please stay with me, I don't want to be alone." She put her Bible back in her night stand and pulled back the sheets for him.
"Let me go shower before i get in the bed."
"Fine but hurry I'm sleepy and i want you in bed when i fall asleep."
"Okay I'll hurry." He went in her bathroom and started the shower. He looked around for some soap that wasn't Nicki's but had no luck. "Guess Japanese Cherry Blossom it is."
30 minutes later he was getting comfortable in bed. Nicki scooted closer to him nuzzling into his chest.
"You smell good." She giggled.
"Hush and go to sleep." he said holding her close and tight.
"Goodnight." She said putting her leg over his.
"Night Nicki." He made sure she was sleep before he drifted off himself.
A Week Later
Nicki laid in her bed staring at her ceiling. She couldn't bring herself to get out of the bed after reading what came in the mail. After Safaree stormed out of the room when she screamed at him she laid down and became numb to all emotions. Nicki felt nothing at this moment in time. No tears flowed from her tear ducts. She bring herself to be angry, sadness didn't engulf her. She just felt nothing.
Nicki just kept hearing Safaree's words ring in her ears "Positive...". She rolled over and grabbed her cell phone and searched for a name she never wanted to speak to again and pressed talk.
"Fresh Market Incorporated this is Lisa speaking, How may i direct your call?"
"Damon Davenport." he answered. Nicki sat there frozen. She had no clue what to say to him. "Hello?" She stared at the phone. "Is anybody there?"
"It's me." She said in a voice barely audible.
"Nicki?" Damon asked in shock.
"Yes."
"How are you doing? I'm so sorry for putting you through all this, I've seen it all over the news. I never meant to humiliate you."
"We need to talk in person. Can you meet me somewhere?"
"I can meet you at the cafe we used to go to late at night in about 20 minutes. Will that work for you?"
"Yeah, 20 minutes." Nicki hung up the phone.
Willing herself to get out of the bed she slipped on a pair of her uggs, threw a snapback on and pulled her ponytail through the back. Slipping on her earmuffs she grabbed her keys and headed out the door.
Everyday Cafe
When Nicki walked in Damon was sitting in the booth they always occupied. She made her way to him. Damon stood as she approached, he tried hugging her but she stopped just short of his arms and looked at him like he was crazy. He dropped his arms and looked at his shoes, Nicki looked around. She seen that it was way to many people in the cafe for the conversation they were about to have.
"Lets go." was all she said before she turned around and made her way out the door. Damon threw a 5 on the table and hurried to catch up with her. He followed behind her until they approached Penn Station. Nicki walked in out of the cold New York weather and sat down on a bench. It was pretty empty at this time of day. Damon sat next to her and just waited for her to speak.
"There are a couple of things I need to tell you."
"Okay I'm listening." He said.
"Well first of all you need to go get checked out because I went to go get tested and I tested positive for Chlamydia." Nicki began to tear up finally speaking the words out loud for the first time.
"Nicki I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you."
"Yes you did. You never loved me, only using me for my money. Then you fucked around and gave me a STD. Don't say you never meant to hurt me because you damn sure weren't trying to protect me." She elevated her voice.
"Okay you're right. I didn't have the best intentions in the beginning but this is not what I wanted to happen. I didn't mean to put your health or career at risk. I know you see me as a monster at the moment but i promise you that's not what I am."
"Your promises don't me shit to me." She spat back while wiping her tears. Damon grew quiet. "There is nothing we can do about the situation now so let's just move on." She shifted in her seat. "I also need to tell you that you weren't the only one not being faithful in our relationship. About four months before the wedding i started messing around with Safaree."
"Wait you were fucking around on me and you just made me sit here and feel like shit about giving you an STD when you could have gotten elsewhere?" Damon had a scowl on his face.
"First of all nigga you did give it to me because Safaree doesn't have it. He received his test today just like I did and he was negative for everything because I was smart enough to use protection when having more than one sexual partner." Nicki hauled off and slapped him across the face. "I just thought i should tell you because it was the right thing to do. Now I don't want to ever see or hear from you again. Go back to your lover boy and have a gay life." she smirked at her word pay. Nicki pulled up the hood on her coat and turned and left him sitting there just staring at nothing in particular.
Wifey
I need you.
Safaree
On my way.
Nicki walked back to her car and headed home to smooth things over with Safaree. She didn't mean to lash out at him earlier but she was so embarrassed by her current state of health. Safaree never judge her but she felt so dirty and less of a woman because of what Damon had given her.
Pulling into the driveway she seen Safarees car already there. She smiled at the fact that he was always there when she needed him. Nicki rushed into the house so she could be in the safety of Safarees arms.
*Okay I know it wasn't much more to it but i needed to get it over with so i can clear this from any drama. I hope you liked it. I know you probably feel some type of way for Nicki having an STD but #DaKidAintNEVUHPredictuhable And it's something that could and does happen in real life. 45 comments...i'll go lower since i haven't been on in awhile Well Until next time...whenever that is.... ItsmarthaBitch!*
